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Mechanical Malfunction September 26, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnyalh @ 8:57 am

Yep. That’s what happened this morning when I weighed in. I moved the Wii board from the side to the center of the room and failed to notice one of the legs fell off. I weighed in at 283.8 which would have been a loss of 5.4 pounds and about on par with the way I’ve been losing weight thus far. I had to have quickie weigh in since it’s picture day for the kiddos at school so I wrapped it up and finished getting them ready and headed on to the bus stop to sit and wait. And wait some more. We were about two minutes late getting there and the driver is not known for waiting for us so we waited until 7:05 and went back home. That’s when I noticed the errant leg…sitting beside the board. My mom had also called during this time to tell me the bus passed her house at 7:15. (There’s 10 minutes between our two houses and it takes about 4 minutes to get to the stop and I retrieved the message at 7:17 on my cell. Yeah try doing that math first thing in the morning to decide if we’d make it back to the bus stop in time for the kids to catch the bus or just have Jeff take them to school like we had planned.)

I knew I had one of two options

  • Keep the original 283.8 weight and expect at best a no loss next week or more than likely a gain or
  • Go ahead and put the leg back on and just re-weigh.

I decided I would rather go ahead and re-weigh and know my accurate weight this week since I know I should be expecting Mother Nature’s visit any time in the next week to 10 days. Besides I had an awesome NSV this morning. I met my one little goal I set and that was to fit into those hot pink shorts I bought two years ago!

This is me in my hot pink shorts. Weight: 286.8. Total Loss: 57.2 pounds!

 

Potluck September 21, 2011

Filed under: Food — dawnyalh @ 11:52 am

That one word has never struck such fear and loathing in me before. It has now. It’s also brought out my inner toddler who wants to throw a temper tantrum and say “I don’t wanna do it!” We are having a birthday dinner celebration for a coworker tomorrow and the original plan was to grill out and either chip in with a few bucks to help with the cost of the meat or bring your own to grill out. Perfect! I was gonna stop at the store and pick up a morning star turkey burger and bring my 100 calorie Sara Lee bun and have some Special K Cracker Crisps. Nice meal. Well managed calories. No biggie. But wait. The plans got changed and the cursed word potluck got thrown out there.

They don’t want to grill out since we are still under a burn ban. Technically we can grill out since the location is on concrete & well within the boundaries of being away from flammable vegetation.

There are several reason why a potluck sounds horrible to me right now.

  1. You can never get a decent calorie count for one since you don’t know how everyone prepares their food.
  2. The foods people are bringing are calorie and fat laden foods that just don’t sound good to  me right now. A couple of months ago I would’ve been all over a potluck and been signing up for at least two dishes to bring.
  3. After the Race on Saturday I had not one but two lunches—one at Olive Garden and one at Lonestar Steakhouse—and then had another basic potluck for a friend’s birthday that used up all those calories I burned. I skipped all the appetizers and dressing soaked salad at the Garden and passed on the yummy looking cake.
  4. It just plain costs a lot to participate—both in time and money. You have to buy the ingredients for whatever you are making and then make the crap after dinner. We’ve already bought groceries for the week and have nothing left over to buy on anything else.

If I don’t participate then I’m not being a team player and if I do then I’m either skimping on calories elsewhere or working my ass off to burn off said calories. Can you tell my inner toddler has really been having fun since yesterday afternoon? I got home and checked out the fridge and pantry. We have a large bag of broccoli and some cheese and could bring broccoli and cheese but someone is already bringing the nice fattening broccoli cheese casserole. There really is nothing else left. So Jeff and I rearranged our menu planning and I’m going to be bringing the Easy Beef Goulash we had planned for Thursday’s dinner. We are bringing in the Southwestern Chicken Roll ups that weren’t made the week before into its slot.

For me, it’s all about the planning. There is plenty of notice for planning this potluck out. And I did have it planned out. Then I had to change it all up again and it pissed me off. I don’t want a 1000 calorie lunch this week. And that’s what a potluck is to me..at least at this point in my life. I know this is a lifestyle change and it’s all about adapting my choices while still living my life. So my choice for tomorrow will be to eat my portion of goulash I had planned for dinner & some veggies.

 

I did it!!! September 19, 2011

Filed under: Exercise, Goals, Weight Loss — dawnyalh @ 12:39 pm

I finished the Race for the Cure in under 1 hour…barely. But I made it and that’s what counts. I did start out jogging and had high hopes of jogging at least half of it. That didn’t happen. As soon as I started, my chest started burning and I was having problems breathing. I tried telling myself it was all in my mind. I slowed my jog. I tried to breathe through my nose and out through my mouth. I started out with Eminem’s “Lose Yourself.” It’s a great song and it motivated me well on Thursday. I jogged all the way through that song and halfway through the next one and that was on my third round of jogging on that day. I barely made it through half of the song before I started walking during the Race.
I kept my walking pace brisk for me. Sure I kept getting passed but I didn’t care. It was way different from the first 5k I ever did. That one, I felt like a complete failure. This time, I kept plugging away. At times I even did a long stride fast walk. My total time? 56:09. I met Sheila about halfway through. She and I kept passing each other along the way and finally just walked side by side. She walked for her mom who has stage 4 breast cancer. We both decided to jog the last bit and it took all I had to jog the last less than 2 blocks of that race. I had the same chest seizing up wheezing problems that I had in the beginning. I kept telling myself I can do this and Sheila kept telling me I could do it and we finished the race together.

I am going to go back to the c25k training and see if I can get my breathing under control. If it’s not better today without the adrenaline rush then I’m gonna call my doc and have her order me an inhaler. I really do like jogging and the freedom it gives. It’s calming and peaceful and something to get me away from the stress of life. I don’t want it to be stressful.

While looking up a couple of things before the Race, I came across the half-marathons for Race for the Cure. One has piqued my interest. Yes a half-marathon! Who wouldn’t want to do a half marathon in Hawaii on their honeymoon? :D Yep. There’s happens to be when we’ll be in Hawaii. It comes with added stipulations—like a minimum of $2300 in fundraising—but it also comes with perks—hotel stay. I’ve been tossing it around in my head since I saw it.

It’s time for Jeff and I to have a serious heart to heart and decide if we are going to renew our vows in Hawaii next year or not. I know he says we are going to do that but we are talking a $10k chunk of change that we just don’t have lying around (and that’s not counting a dress, cake, wedding stuff, etc). It is something that we can do if we plan for it now…but we haven’t yet and that scares me. I don’t want to commit to something or tell someone who might be coming that it’s going to happen only to have us not be able to afford to go.

Final note: Down 2 pounds this week.

 

Going to walk it September 14, 2011

Filed under: Exercise — dawnyalh @ 12:30 pm

I’ve come to terms with having to walk the 5k and I’m okay with it…now. This morning I was upset and near tears but then I realized it’s no one’s fault but my own. I haven’t been exercising like I should. Part of it was fear. What if I continued to work out and still couldn’t jog it? I think that’s what has been holding me back. This way I forced myself to have to walk it.

I have at least two other coworkers who will be walking as well so I won’t be alone. I will jog tonight and Thursday and Friday to see how far I can go. Depending how well my stamina holds up, I may try and do the last mile of it jogging.

Everything else is just plugging away. Trying to keep planning meals and having everything scheduled (meetings, etc.)

 

754 September 5, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnyalh @ 1:36 pm

That’s my number for the Race. It came in the mail Saturday. Guess it makes it that much more real. Less than two weeks now and I’m still having stamina issues. I did c25k w2d3 this morning and about got dehydrated. I made it through the 4th jogging set and realized that I wasn’t sweating. I was drinking water in the walking sets but I guess it wasn’t enough.
Had one of the kids bring me my G2 and I walked the rest. Came inside with a cool rag and started sweating and feeling better. Tonight I’m going to walk two miles or at least see how far I can go. I need to make sure I can at least WALK that far if I’m not going to be able to jog it. I haven’t been exercising like I should. I KNOW I NEED to exercise and I do have the TIME to do it. I just don’t. It’s something to work on.
Now for the good news…after the 3 pound gain from last week, I lost it along with almost 6 of it’s friends! Down to 290.6 this morning! Sure shocked me. I finished my wii fit routine and had to go into the graphs to actually get the weight because I was sure I read that number wrong. But nope. I read it right. Just goes to show you to work through it no matter what and I was right not giving up on myself!

 

Weighty Roller Coaster September 1, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnyalh @ 9:27 am

Here it is. My adult weight loss attempts. And to think in high school I swore I would never ever diet and become a yo-yo dieter. But look at it. It’s there in black and white..and blue. I graduated high school in May 1991 at around 195 pounds and I swore that I would never ever diet again. I did the good old Slimfast diet before my senior year in high school and got down to 175.

It wasn’t the diet itself that ruined me on dieting per se. It was the fact that I was working one Saturday and my Mom called up and asked what I wanted for lunch and I said just bring me whatever. She was ordering Dad’s lunch from a local burger dive and I just assumed she was ordering me something from there as well. WRONG. She brought me one well mixed frozen Slimfast concoction and I just couldn’t stomach drinking it. I had my heart set on a greasy cheeseburger and fries and that shake didn’t begin to resemble them. My Mom during this time also lost a large chunk of weight and was down to a size 10 (before vanity sizing mind you) and liked the shakes. Even at 17, I knew that yo-yo dieting was bad and I just decided that wasn’t for me and to accept me for who I was.

For 10 years, I didn’t. I gained the freshman 50 instead of the 15. I weighed around 236 at the end of my Freshman year. But I biked and my dorm was the farthest away from campus so I lost the 15 and pretty much maintained around 220-225 all through college. I’ve never had a problem with self esteem. I know that I’m beautiful inside and out. There’s just more of me to love.

Then in 1996, I quit working at Walmart. I was still going to school full-time and got a job working at the TV station full-time. Translate that into sitting on my ass for 10 hours a day instead of standing on my feet. My clothes still fit me the same. I went in for my yearly check-up. I stepped on the scale—252. I joked at the woman and told her my purse must’ve been on there with me and made her weigh me again. There was no way I could weigh that much! But yep. In just three months I put on that much weight.

I didn’t actually decide to do something about my weight until 2001. The weights on my chart are all from my fitday. I hated having to give it up but they only offer mobile to iphone users and I’m going to go with what’s convenient for me.

  • April 2, 2001—294 first recorded weight
  • May 28, 2001—268.5 lowest weight on my first attempt also right after my divorce
  • Nov. 2, 2001—273.5 Started getting comfortable and let a few pounds back on
  • May 2, 2002—290 Found out I was pregnant with our first child
  • July 14, 2003—317 Found out I was pregnant with our second child
  • Feb. 3, 2004—304 Gave birth to our second child. Actually lost weight in prengancy
  • Feb. 6, 2004—295 Lost 9 pounds after giving birth.
  • Feb. 28, 2005—250 Lowest weight from second attempt at losing weight (got comfortable in new body)
  • June 27, 2005—266 Third pregnancy
  • Aug. 1, 2005— 265 Miscarriage
  • January 2, 2006—287.5 Found out pregnant with our third child
  • October 12, 2006—290 Attempt to lose weight after giving birth
  • May 1, 2007—315 Almost back up to my highest weight
  • June 18, 2007—293 Another attempt at weight loss
  • Oct. 14, 2007—313 Put the weight back on
  • Nov. 19, 2007—297.8 Lost a few more pounds
  • Jan. 7, 2008—302.6 Gained some over the holidays
  • Feb. 18, 2008—278.8 Ran my first 5k
  • May 19, 2008—247.8 Lowest I’ve been in my adult life since trying to lose weight
  • June 12, 2009—344 Highest I’ve ever been in my adult life

I’ve since started and stopped trying to lose weight several times since that last recorded weight in fitday. I couldn’t even count. I received my Wii fit for Christmas in 2009 but it took me until this year to finally get below the 330 to even be able to play it. The kids have had much use out of it before then. Let’s see I’m on day 200 something so that’s how long I’ve been using it.

Yes, I could look at this graph and say, “Damn, I’m good at quitting,” but I’m not. I can look at this graph and say “You can do this.” I do know what I need to do. I know that I have to change my life in every aspect food and exercise wise.

Yes, I can choose to still live the way I was living but that will be as a 300+ pound fat woman. But I CHOOSE to eat healthy AND exercise so I can find the healthy woman inside and ride a real roller coaster again!