35 pages of papers left to write.

5 finals left to take.

1 thesis left to write.

Let’s just say the diet is out of the window this week…

Unless sushi and wraps count as diet food???

Last week I had a stomach bug and I lost 8 pounds in two days.  Is it totally disgusting that I was happy about that?

Today:  4 hot wings, half of a cheese calzone, a green apple, 2 glasses of sweet tea. 

Shame.  On.  Me.

Ok, WTF is wrong with me?  I make all of these plans to lose weight, I start out ok, then I just stall out like a car that’s run out of gas.  ARGH!

Today I’ve eaten a fish sandwich, half an order of fries, two and a half glasses of soda, and I’m about to consume a frozen dinner of curry chicken.  Veggies, anyone?

Let’s see how I can do on this try, number 467…

Well, I did not do my MFC workout for the day.  I did, however, get workout credit for all the hiking all over campus I did today.  Parking sucks and the library has too many stairs.  Let’s leave it at that.

Breakfast:  banana

Lunch:  tilapia & shrimp w/ parmesan sauce, broccoli, mashed potatoes

Snacks:  small handful jelly beans, pack of cheese on wheat crackers (I was STARVING in my late class)

Dinner:  Lean Michelina’s chicken & rice w/ some kind of sauce

16 oz. H2O

Too many oz. sweet tea

Lots of reading to do tomorrow.  Until then…

Yay me–I did 2 workouts after my Shakespeare class tonight!

30 minutes of core

15 minutes of yoga

32 oz. of water

1 grande white chocolate mocha from Starbucks (Well, no one is perfect…  And it was nonfat & without whipped cream…)

Tomorrow, another MFC workout–I can do this!

1 midterm

3 classes

2 meals 

15 minutes of an MFC workout

This is what I accomplished today. 

What I should have done:  mailed my car payment, consoled my mother, and talked to my lawyer.  Tomorrow, perhaps?

I did not post a single post in February.  Might help explain why I gained 7 pounds…

Got the My Fitness Coach (MFC) for the Wii, beginning it tomorrow.

Today is devoted to studying for midterms and doing a history assignment–such fun!  And the library has a coffee shop and tons of snack/soda machines…  Not a good thing.

I love my kids; I love my family; I love [most of] my friends; I hate my body.  1/4 of my life right now is not love–not too bad, right?  Crap, who am I kidding?  I love everyone but myself.  Agh–I’ll stop whining now.  Off for some lunch and then to the library.  Let the studying begin.

I have come to realize that I cannot make everyone see my point of view.

I have come to realize that I do not need everyone to like me.

I have come to realize that I need to let other people handle things which they are better equipped than me to handle.

I have come to realize that coming to realizations is hard and slightly uncomfortable, yet freeing once accomplished.

So, first the good news.  I logged my calories into my daily plate calorie counter and I was soooo under my calories for the day I had to go make myself a snack.  What what?  Yes, I HAD to eat a snack because I had not even consumed 1,000 calories today.  Woo-hoo! 

And yet…  The reason I didn’t eat enough today is because of my @$$ of an ex.  We’re going to court to get a child support order and he’s trying to convince me to settle out of court for less than half of what the court has determined he should pay.  I told him I wanted to let the court handle it, but he still calls (and his new wife MySpace messages me) and harrasses me about settling privately.  The stress from all of this drama makes me not want to eat.  Perhaps that’s the silver lining??

Yesterday my spin class was cancelled so I came home and did half an hour of boxing on the Wii.  And today my shoulders and upper back are screaming at me!!  Maybe it was a better workout than I thought it was…

Hopefully tomorrow will be a good day.  I have a lot of classes and not much time for exercise.  We’ll see.

I suck.  This week has been awful for me.  It began with a few yoga classes & lunches of fresh veggies and degenerated into salmon fettucine alfredo dinners & McD’s double cheeseburger lunches.  And I feel like crap.  Yuck yuck yuck.

I’m doing a couple of things to get back on track (fessing up to my bad behavior being the first step).  I’m creating a class/study/exercise/sleep schedule.  Not saying I will stick to it, but I will try my best.  I will.  I will. 

Okay, I did find my ipod–Yay!  Good for walking around the track & on the treadmill. 

I can do this.  I can do this.  I can do this.  I can do this…