Feelings… Gross
June 30th, 2009
Without the anesthesia of food, there’s a whole lotta lot to be felt. Sat in our office at work with this rising feeling of panic and just *yuck* in my chest. Why? Who knows. Tried to take my emotional temperature… but really, it could just be life. Looks like my capacity for the *ick* will just have to increase, I suppose. And it will happen as I dive headlong into this thing that I don’t want to do, but want to have done, ya know?
So.
If I make it through tonight, it’ll be Day #6
June 30th, 2009 at 3:25 pm
Yeah, I agree. Feelings… Gross. It is such a trial for me to get in touch with how I feel! I spent years and years stuffing them. Even though a lot of the fat is gone today, knowing and understanding my feelings doesn’t come easy. That’s why I journal here, there is not another way for me–not that I have found yet. Thank God for 3fc! …total lifesaver.