It’s been over a week since I actually started recording my progress and I’m feeling great!!  I went to the doctor today and before I get any further, they weighed me and I went from 225 to 222.8… so I’m down 2.2 pounds!  I’m so proud!  I am now also being put on thyroid medication because I have an underactive thyroid.  I’m SO glad I went back in to talk to a new doctor, I *love* Dr. Parker and I wish that I could keep her as a doctor even after I’m done with school.  She was very comforting when telling me my problem, and said that there was nothing to worry about and that what I have is treatable.  As far as having any kind of bad issues with my health, this is the best one I could have!  Haha.  So I started the therapy today, I have to take a pill a day probably for the rest of my life.  But if it makes me feel better, I’m so down!  She also said that I can expect some weightloss and I can’t tell you how happy that made me feel.  I know that I’m in this for my health, but I’d like to see the numbers on the scale gradually move downward to the 150s (PLEASE!)

On another note, I just finished my paper with an hour to spare… I’m so good like that.  I plan on cleaning my room tonight before I go home tomorrow.  I love going home, but in a way it’s really bad for me because I never get my exercise in.  Chelle, we *have* to exercise together this weekend!!!  No joke!

Until tomorrow ladies, STAY STRONG, we can do it!!!

It’s been one of those unmotivated days.  I got sick last night so I didn’t work out, but tonight I’m definitely going to… I feel better when I work out and I know how helpful it is if only just for my health, but days like today I just don’t wanna get out of bed.

I have another doctors appt tomorrow to check my thyroid because I seriously thing that that is why I’m not losing weight, and why I’m tired ALL THE TIME!  Hopefully they’ll be able to give me medicine and help me get out of the rut I’ve been in.   I have to write a paper due tomorrow, so I’m gonna make this short and sweet, goodbye Day 7!

I’ve done really well today food wise.  I plan on exercising tonight, and that’ll make me feel better.  I keep getting compliments from the roommates and the fam/friends back home… it’s making this process a little easier to deal with.  I’ve been constantly looking at the goal/mini-goal pictures on the forums and I want to look like those people… I want to do it by next July.  I just need to keep my motivation… and be strong!!

I decided to look at ’skinny girl’ wedding dresses and found the perfect one for me when (not if!!) I loose this weight.  I’m no where close to getting married, but I’ve been planning my wedding since I was like 5 (just ask my friends)!

or The 2nd dress looked better on the plus sized model (who isn’t really plus sized IMO)  But I love the first one, it’d definitely be one to try on WHEN I lose my huge gut. 

I spent today putting together an art project that is due tomorrow.  It’s my midterm, and I wanted it to be fantastic.  It looks great, and I just have to post some pictures!!

We had to create a 3D self portrait detailing something our ourselves.  Since I want to become a wedding planner, I decided to build a wedding cake with wedding pics and stuff all over it.  I’m really proud of it and I can’t wait to show it off in class tomorrow.  Thankfully because I was busy working on this, I didn’t even think about food today so I didn’t eat all day.

I bought some new nutrition bars, Zone Perfect.  My dietitian recommended them because they are a really good source of protein.  I hope that they help me get breakfast in this week, I have such a hard time with breakfast because I’m such a procrastinator… I’m usually running late getting out of the apt.

Anywho… the plan for tomorrow is this:

B: Zone Perfect bar

L: Ham Sandwich; carrot sticks; pudding cup; 15 sunchips

S: Yogurt

D: undecided (depends on when class gets out)

S: oatmeal

Today I’m going to a football game.  I have to be there 4 hours before the game starts and the games usually last 4 hours.  I’m eating breakfast now, but what about lunch… I’ll have to get something there and we all know what stadium food is like.  I’m just gonna have to work out extra hard tonight, but I can do it!  Wohoo, BOOMER SOONER!

Ok, so I went to a dietitian yesterday.  She gave me some great advice, and I’m happy that I went.  I have to cut down on my carbs, which was a no brainer… I’m such a carbavore.  I am limited to 150g of carbs per day which is basically 50 per meal (which I still wanna be able to split for my between meal snacks).  She also told me to up my cardio… apparently when you first start doing cardio it’s burning the sugars and after a while then it starts burning the fat.  So I’m just gonna have to stick it out on the treadmill, no matter how bored I get.

Today’s meal plan:

B: Zone Perfect nutrition bar

L: Ham sandwich on wheat bread, carrot sticks, pudding cup

S: Cheese stick

D: Healthy choice pasta creation, green beans, yogurt

S: Bowl of manderine oranges

The hardest part of being on a diet is the people around you.  I have lived with the same roommates for the last 3 years.   One of them had the gastric bypass right before we moved in together (and she eats like CRAP) and both of them are just not really concerned with working out and eating better.  When we first moved in together we cooked dinner together almost every night.  And believe me, it wasn’t healthy be any means.  Recently I decided to give up red meat, it wasn’t hard to do because I wasn’t a huge fan of red meat to begin with.  They are literally mad at me because I no longer want to eat dinner with them, they are meat and potato people… and I’m definitely not.  Instead of being supportive, they make me feel bad for no longer contributing to dinner.  It’s kinda crappy, because while I don’t really need their support in order to accomplish my goals, I don’t need people to make me feel bad for eating better.  On top of that, they are constantly testing my will power by inviting me to all the good, but absolutely bad for you restaurants.  I’m not one of those people who expect everyone around me to diet when I am, but they also need to realize that it’s hard enough to to do the healthy thing without having the bad influences constantly staring me down!

This is day one, ground zero.

My ultimate goal is to be healthy.  The weight and inches lost will just be an added bonus.

Let’s start from the beginning.  I’ve always been overweight.  I used to think that I wasn’t when I was younger, but I ran across a picture of me when I was 10 in Hawaii and I have this huge gut that I wasn’t even trying to suck in (I guess I learned that method a little later on in my teen years).

In high school I didn’t really pay attention to my weight.  I was on the colorguard so I was constantly working out and though I never lost weight, I never gained weight either.  I had a great group of friends and that’s all that mattered to me in high school.  At the end of my senior year I got mono.  It was the worst illness I’ve faced to date…. I won’t go into details, but I lost 45 lbs in a week and half and looked pretty bad.  When I could finally keep food down again I ate everything I could get my hands on.  I was bored, stuck at home, and just ate.  I gained those 45lbs back, plus 20 more after graduation because I no longer had colorguard as my exercise.

Fast forward through atkins, weight watchers, LA fitness, and slim fast… I got results from these, but got bored with them fast.  I’m such an instant gratification type of person that if I wasn’t seeing immediate results I’d fall back into bad habits.

What changed: –I had my yearly check up and told my doctor that I wanted to get my cholesterol checked.  High cholesterol runs in my family, and I knew that even though I’m only 24 it was more than likely gonna be high.  It was, but not astronomically.  Something that I can change with diet and exercise, or at least that’s what I thought I should start with.  My doctor thought differently and automatically wanted to refer me to a cardiologist and have me get started on cholesterol meds.  It scared me.  After my visit (and deciding that I would try to diet and exercise first) I started to have chest pains.  I *knew* that my mind was making up symptoms.  It happened when I ate something fried or full of fat… what I knew was bad for me.  At one point I had some steak fingers and fries and had a very public panic attack and that’s when I decided that something needed to change.  That was about 3 weeks ago, I’ve been eating better… trying to fill up on fruits and veggies before eating the main meal.  Exercise whenever I get a chance.  I’ve already started to see results.  The scale hasn’t really been my friend, but again… I’m not too worried with the numbers.  But I went from an XL shirt to a L and it made my day.

I hope that through the support of my friends and family (and my new 3FC family) that I can finally do this.  I don’t want to let the fact that I’m not getting immediate results hinder me from continuing this life changing journey.  Mini goals are going to be my saving grace.

Starting weight: 228 — Current weight: 225 — Goal weight (as of 10/8/09): 160

Mini Goal #1 - Onederland!! (by Christmas 12-25-2009)

Mini Goal #2 - 185 (by Spring Break 3-13-2010)

Mini Goal #3 170 (by end of Spring semester 5-22-2010)

Goal! 160 (or maybe lower if I get there) (by Infinitus 7-15-2010)