In which I didn’t really stay on plan. :/ (as a side note, this is more life bloggy than diet bloggy… I apologize for that, but this blog is kinda both for me!) Friday night my school hosted a Harry Potter Palooza which was a blast… it was like a mini con that I didn’t have to pay for.  It was so much fun.  Saturday I went to the OU/KSU game and I was on TV twice — my aunt had to call my grandma and tell her how good I’m looking now.  w00t!  After the game I went to my friends Halloween party and that’s where my diet really turned south because I had alcohol, and I really have been trying to stay away from the alcohol.  But ya gotta let loose every now and then, and lemme tell ya… put alcohol in me and my shell is completely gone.  I kinda spent the night kissin’ this guy, who luckily for me wasn’t a complete stranger… although I’m not sure if that makes it better.  Anywho, he wanted me to stay the night with him (um, no no… bad idea) and he said that he’d add me on facebook so that I could call him… I jokingly was like, go ahead thinking more than likely he wouldn’t remember who I was… lo and behold he added me yesterday.  That obviously means he’s interested right?  I was really leaving it up to whether or not he was going to add me, and then when he did I had to formulate a new plan for myself… haha.  I can’t go on thinking that he was only interested in me because he was drunk.  That’s my defense mechanism, and it’s a sucky one.  Anywho, I sent him a message on facebook being friendly and a little flirty so we’ll see where it goes from there!

Oh, one thing about this guy is that I met him about 2 years ago.  We weren’t close at all (he was friends with one of my roomies at the time) when I walked into the party, he didn’t even recognize me.  When I told him that we did in fact know each other, he told me that I looked really different.  Taking that for the compliment it was (obviously, cause I spent all night kissin’ him) I decided to look back at pictures from my first year at college.  I can really see the difference, and this whole experience has been eye opening for me… I’ve always been shut off from male attention because of my weight.  When I was younger my grandma used to tell me that I’m so pretty and when I lose weight, I’d get a boyfriend.  That really stuck with me, thinking that I wasn’t worthy of a relationship because I was overweight.  She didn’t intentionally do that to hurt me, it was her way of encouraging me… unfortunately the opposite happened and I’ve been kinda handicapped when I came to men.  Anyway, enough of that… lol, I’m anxious to see if he messages me back.  If not, I hope that I can take this as a confidence booster, and not let it get me down and depressed! 

Hopin’ I can get back on plan… like tomorrow –I’m comin’ back to you Jillian!!  I am still your bitch! ;)  Until tomorrow, STAY STRONG!!