I had a decent weekend.  The plus side is, the scale was sitting at 149 this am when I got up.  Same place it was Sat and Sun mornings.  So, no gain this weekend.  No loss either, which is a bummer, but not having a gain is a step in the right direction.   By the time I’d worked out (drank/sweat) showered, rested, gone to the bathroom (both) and weighed again it was down to 148.6.  Its a start. 

My food this weekend was pretty good.  Hubby and I did go out to sweet tomatoes on Friday night and although I behaved at the salad bar, I did have their cobbler with a bit of icecream.  I could feel the bloating by the time I got home.  Woke up Sat am to bloating and tummy issues and the increase on the scale.

Sunday was diving day.  We had 2 dives - one at 70′ for 1hr and the other at 30′ for 1hr.  The deeper dive was a workout, but the shallow dive wasn’t a super strenuous workout. 

This morning I got up and met my workout partner for a workout.  I’m tired still from the boating and diving.  Sunburned and just exhausted from the weekend I really couldn’t push myself hard for the workout.  I can’t sprint and the workout for today was to sprint up 3 levels of a parking garage then back down - 4times.  Followed by suicide sprints across the top of the garage - 3 distances - 4 times.  My sprint was nonexistent. 

When I got home, I showered then layed back down and took a 45min nap before getting up.  I was soooo tired.  I feel like I should go workout again tonight, but I’m also rather tired, so I think I’ll rest.

Day one of my blog.  I’m not a blogger, so we’ll see how this goes.   I don’t really know what to write about.

This morning I took some before photos (even though technically I’ve been doing this for 3 weeks and have lost 4lbs).  Tonight, I will do my measurements too and start tracking all of this again.

I guess I’ll start with my story. 

I grew up a skinny kid - 5′ 1″ tall and 110lbs at my heaviest thru my teens and early twenties.  Married at 19, and had my first kid at 22.  My heaviest recorded weight while pregnant was 169lbs.  After having my son I was 155 for a long time and wearing size 12’s.  When he was 3 I divorced and discovered the divorce stress diet.  I did not own a scale at the time, but I lost weight down to being in a size 4 - 6.  I’m guessing I was in the 120’s.  I also discovered that I had grown 3″ and 2 shoe sizes during pregnancy as I was then 5′4 and wear a size 7.5 shoe.  Hormones do mysterious things.

Then, in 1998, at the age of 26 I met my current husband.  Over the course of the first 6 months or so of being with him I slowly gained weight thru that first summer.  Technically I was a single mom to a 4yr old.   I worked full time, I was also going to college at night to finish my degree and I had a budding new relationship.  When I went to put my pants on the next fall, I found they wouldn’t fit over my thighs.  I’d gained weight.

I was never a super active sporty person and during my first marriage, I never exercised.  By my current hubby is very physically active and we really enjoy doing active things together.  So, I picked up bike riding.   I remember my first ride with my hubby, he’d gotten me some bike shorts for my birthday and we went for a ride along the beach.  I overheated and was sick for 2 days afterwards.  And I think it was only a 7 mile ride.   (now adays that barely a warmup ride for me).

I became active in a usenet newsgroup for dieting in 99.  I started my weight loss journey then at 138lbs.  I felt huge then.  My first goal was 134, then to stay under 130.    I got there thru some hard work, and then I started with weight training and maintenance.  I would go thru 6 week series of low carb, high protein, heavy weights in order to bulk up 5lbs, then I would go on weight loss mode to and cut the cals to lose the 5lbs.  All in an effort to gain muscle and lose fat.  I maintained that 128 - 132 range for several years. 

Hubby and I officially tied the knot 6.5 yrs ago in 2004.  Somewhere along the say, over the past 6 yrs since I have been married the weight slowly crept back on.  The usenet group died away, life got busy and I remember getting up to about 140 but not feeling all that heavy.  I still fit into size 6 pants.  Then 140 turned into 150 and I knew I had to do something.   For at least the past 2 - 3 yrs I’ve been yo-yoing in the 142 - 150 range.  I work to get down to 142, but get stuck, give up and gain it back.

So, here I am, back to square one.  Back to figuring out how to eat and how to lose weight.  Back to working out very hard as much as I can every week and eating light.  Back to trying to get back to that goal of under 130. 

I’m technically back to the weight I was after I had my son.   But I’ve never felt fatter in my life. 

I’m going to journal my food and track my exercise.  And I will likely need the most encouragement and help to get past that 142 hurdle. 

The journey begins here!