Stress Eating Self-Sabotage

Posted by cherrypye on April 16th, 2010 |Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

I’ve got a couple spare minutes on my afternoon break at the office to jot down some thoughts:

I keep telling myself that this time I will succeed…but man, I want to give up. 

I’m a stress eater and right now I’m stressed to the max. 

I’m an only child, and live on the East Coast while my parents live on the West Coast.  My dad is very ill, and the dreaded big C has been thrown around as a likely diagnosis.  I’m so worried.  I can’t be there because things are difficult finacially and schedule wise.  I can’t move there because my career is in DC.  So what do I do?

I eat.

After losing 10 pounds in one week, great results to say the least, I went home yesterday having already decided to eat badly.  I am following a low-carb plan and popcorn is a big no-no.  But I popped 1/2 cup of kernals and topped it off with butter and ate it. 

Granted, I shared with my husband, but I still ate at least 1/4 cup unpopped alone.

This morning, I was still in ketosis, but pretty disappointed with myself. 

So now, my dad is still sick.  I’m still worried. And now, on top of all this, I’m disappointed in myself.

This must stop.

Are we there yet? Are we ever?

Posted by cherrypye on April 16th, 2010 |Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

So today is Day 10 of my recommittment to getting healthy, and I got to tell ya, I’m tired.

A little history–

I’ve always been a little bit overweight (size 12-14 US) but after a very bad marriage and subsequent divorce, my weight had reached it’s all-time high.

In March of 2009, I weighed in at my top weight, 230lbs.  With a heavy heart, I realized that I was heavier than “Fat Oprah”, someone who I had always felt bad for as she publicly battled her weight.

I was 28, borderline liver damage, high cholesterol and pretty unhappy with it.

So I changed.

I went whole foods/vegetarian.  I no longer ate fast food, fried food, tried my best to avoid processed food and relied on a diet of fruits, veggies and legumes for protein.  I enjoyed brown rice here and there are learned to carry my own meals with me when I went over to friend’s homes to visit.

Then I fell in love with a wonderful man and married him 53 (yes, 53) days after we met.

Life was great.  I had lost over 70 pounds (between March and August.

And then I got comfortable…and a little too comfortable.

Fast-forward to today–

It’s now March 2010, and I managed to gain over 20 pounds in the almost 6 months since I got married.

So, it’s time to get serious.  My goal weight is between 115 and 120 since I’m a bit of a shorty (5 Feet even).

While I was a vegetarian (I no longer am) I learned a couple things:

1. I am a carb-aholic.

2. My body personally suffers if there is no meat in my diet.

As such, I decided to go low-carb, which I’d done before.  I am using the Wonderslim family of products to supplement my protein, allowing me to eat 5 protein based meals/snacks per day.  I am following the Medifast 5-1 plan, with 5 protein based meals per day and one “Lean and Green” meal a day.

After one week on the program, I lost 10 pounds.  I’m now sitting at 183..about 63 lbs from my goal.

My husband and I will be traveling to another country to have a formal wedding celebration with his family.  We also plan to start trying for a baby next year.  As such, I want to be healthy as soon as possible.

I also post under the screenname “cherrypye” in the 3FC forums.

Best of luck.  Let’s get there together!