It was cold this morning when I took the garbage out to the curb.  Sometime this afternoon I’m going to do some out side work, hopefully for the last time.  I didn’t see any frost.

Yesterday morning breakfast was a boiled egg, a package of oatmeal, 9 almonds, almond milk.  For lunch I had a bbq rib sandwich and a side salad and a piece of fat free cheese.  Dinner was hardly anything. I bought a Sonic extra long chili dog and it was so salty I threw it away.  I did have a regular dr pepper. 

My visit to the gyn was not pleasant.  He sent me to the lab to be tested for anemia, then decided that I needed another biopsy.  While he was doing that he found and removed a polyp.  He told me that removing the polyp may resolve my problem, but he wasn’t going to rule out surgery until my test come back. He said no 59 year old woman should have to deal with this. I’m bleeding and not in a regular cycle.  Thank you sir. 

While I was waitng for him to come to the the exam room I was reading the NEA (North East Arkansas) medical magazine.  It seems that NEA is on a healthy life style “kick” so to speak.  Their is a group of internal medicine doctor’s that have a program that will help you get healthy and lose weight.  I’m really thinking about calling for an appointment.  My insurance also has a program that I could use   I need the accountiblity in person.  But I’m going to wait until I hear from the test results before I make that decision.  I may talk to my doctor about it also.  I feel like my current problem is holding me back in my weight loss.

I did call my bff to let her know what was going on.  I told her that I might stop by after the appointment but all I wanted to do was go home.   I think she was ready to get out of this marriage. 

It was  bright and sunny this morning at 6.30 a.m.  It makes me want to do more things. Therefore, most of the  laundry has been completed.

This afternoon I’m going to the gyn and if time allows I’ll go visit my bff.  She emailed me yesterday with her phone number and new address.   Her house is not far from my doctor’s office.  I have to remember that  J has a bigger population than my small town.

Oh my, The police  banged on the door  and asked if I knew if any one was missing  2 small children.  He said they were not talking so they are going door to door. 

Yesterday’s food was better.  I’m not sure how many steps I managed to walk as I had the pedometer upside down in my pocket.   I’ve found that if I eat more protein than carbs my body does not crave.

This morning breakfast was oatmeal, boiled egg, and almond milk. 

Food is still not good but getting a handle on things.  Exercise included two 10 minute walks. Total steps for yesterday was 10,600.  This included climbing steps. 

This morning’s weight was 196.4. 

Watched the biggest loser last night.  I’ve pleased with the outcome of the show.  Daniel finally had a big loss.  And the one that was sent home actually deserved it.  But she looked fabulous. 

Still no word from the bff so I’m not going to try to contact her anymore.  She can contact me if she wants to.

Tomorrow I go to the gyn.  I’m dreading it in a way because I’m not looking forward to the biopsy.  The ultrasound is not bad. It has to be done.  If he recommends surgery, I’m ready.

My neighbor told me this morning that B has invited us out to eat Friday. 

It’s time to get on with my day.

I have decided on a plan.  It will be the Metoblic Research Weight Loss program.  Unfortunately their is not a center loacated near me anymore. I’ve pulled my diet sheets and will start tomorrow.  I tried to start today but didn’t do to well. Binged on bread this afternoon due to nerves.  I don’t know why I’m nervous, it may be the upcoming doctor’s visit (gyn) Thursday.  Having more problems, ugh. 

Exercise has been 7068 steps.  8 minutes of timed walking here at work.  The rest has been in spurts because of plant monitoring. 

I’m a little confused and this may be the end of a bff friendship.  I really don’t understand why she is not responding to IM’s.  So tonight if there is no response I’m through.  I have been concerned about her. as she told me she was going through a divorce.   

I’m here to say I’ve written a post.  Yesterday was a boring day at work. This gets my binging gear going  into  over drive..  I raided  my co-workers cabinet simply because I didn’t bring enough food to last all day.   Ugh. I wish they wouldn’t leave things with in reach.  I feel like a ticking time bomb with all the fat and sugar intake  from yesterday. I’m doing better today. 

Stopping by the grocery store tonight to stock up on healthy foods.   

This month will be focused on health and staying healthy.  I’m not sure  what strategy I will be taking but counting calories should be the easiest thing to do.   There need’s to be  a structured menu of x amount of protein, x amount of carbs and x amount of fat’s.  I need to sit down and calculate my menu’s per week instead of  spur of the moment food. 

Cardio for  30 minutes per day.

Drink at least 64 oz of water or more if I can. 

My weight this morning is 198.4. 

198.4 is disgusting but what I ate yesterday was disgusting also.  

15 minutes on the treadmill.  I’m learning not to crank her up at the very beginning.  I’ve lowered my starting point to 1.7 then to 2.0. with my short legs this is a fast pace for me. Jillian’s voice for some reason keeps popping in my head telling me not to hold on.   Completed 5 minutes on the eliptical and 15 minutes on the recumbant bike. Then completed hammer curls, front arm raises and side twist using the 5 pound weights.  The ab machine had 27.5 pounds for 2 sets of 15 and the chest fly machine had 10 pound weight and also did 2 sets of 15.  My upper body strength is not very good.

It’s Holloween and I’m not looking forward to tonight.  I don’t participate even though I did when I was younger.  To me it symbolizes the devil’s night.

I haven’t done much toward cleaning the house this week end. It’s been to  dark and rainy.  Infact when I got out to go to the gym yesterday my area was flooded out in spots.  My street was too but I bypassed that area and used the next street over.  The water has gone down.  It was a good decision not to travel this week end.  This week it’s suppose to be sunny but on the cool side. 

It’s raining again.  I’m  wondering how many day’s in a row that’s it’s done this. There is water sitting on top of the ground with no place to go.

I did go to the gym yesterday and didn’t kill myself.  10 minutes on the treadmill, 5 minutes on the eliptical and 5 on the bike.  I chose the lateral pull down machine, ab machine, hip abductor machine, chest fly, and upper back machine each of these had approximatley 30 pounds of weight, except the chest fly 10 pounds is all I can handle on this machine.  Completed 2 sets of 12. I’m not over doing things this time.

Food was, oatmeal and a boiled egg for breakfast.  Lunch was a pimento cheese sandwich, baked beans and a few chips.  I did have two slices of pizza after my work out yesterday thinking this would be my food allotment for the day but a friend called and wanted to go eat Mexican.  I chose a Mexican Salad. and an apple  after I got home.  It was good.

Weight this morning is 197.6. 

I don’t like participating in the Holloween activities. My plan is to not be at home. So I’m going to the gym around 3 p.m. then to Walmart, to eat. and then the grocery store. If it’s still raining I’m going to stay home with the light’s out. NOW get this yesterday on the new’s they were telling child preditors to do the same thing.

I’ve been working again in my spare bedroom trying to get it decluttered and ready for company at Thanksgiving. Why do I allow myself to put thiings in here with out picking up the next day. I’ve got to get back on my routine of cleaning house.

I watched Soap net last night thinking that something was going down yesterday on General Hospital.   Last night the preview for today indicates that Claudia will be killed off but by whom I don’t really know.  She has enemies.  Jason had  found cd’s of where she had ordered a hit on Sonny and now Michael has remembered her telling him that she was responsible that he got shot.  Also watched  a show called a 427 pound teenager.  I also like to watch the Body challenge but it comes on after the Biggest loser on eith fittv or on BBC.

There was way to much caffiene yesterday.  I didn’t get sleepy until 2 a.m. but my throat has been bothering me due to drainage due to  all this yucky weather.  I took some histamine around 2 this morning and slept till 11 a.m.  It’s still very dark outside.  I could probably sleep all day.  But the histamine has help to dry up part of the drainage.

The month of October is zooming to a close.  Its another dark dreary day.  We’re under a flash flood watch.  The weather people here have predicted storms and 3 to 6 inches of rain.  It’s smells moldy outside.  There will be no trip to my uncles this week end. 

Weight this morning is 195.4 which is good considering I ate a big meal after 7.30 p.m.  However, it was not fast food.  I was tempted but I stopped by the grocery store on the way home and bought some healthy, low sodium stuff.   Blood pressure this morning is 127/73 with pulse rate of 78.   

Yesterday goals  that were met was the walking 10 minutes.  I may go to the gym later today if it’s not storming.  I only drank 32 oz of water.  I know one thing I can not  handle a diet 7 up. I like the diet Sprite’s better.  Still no caffiene.  I do have a regular dr pepper in the fridge. 

I was very tired last night and ended up sleeping on the couch.  I had the beginning of a sore throat but it’s not bad after I’ve been up for an hour.  I’m still thinking that I’ll go to the doctor a little later today to get a shot for the drainage.  We’re suppose to take flu shots next week. 

Today agenda is to rest, laundry and  the bed rooms. It’s time to get with it.   

Food last night included a lean cuisine sphagetti dinner and salad.  Crackers after I got home and 3 Double Stuf Oreo.  Someone mentioned these on FB the other day and that was a trigger. I made my 48 oz of water and my 2 five minute walks yesterday.  I’m wondering if my new shoes is affecting my back but they are not suppose to.  I’m wearing lighter weight shoes today so I can tell.

Up this morning to another dark dreary start.  The sun is predicted to shine today around mid morning. There is a gorgeous golden treen outside my window.  Breakfast was eggs, bacon and gravy this morning.  And there has been 2 fun sized Snickers eaten. 

Weight this morning was 195.8.  and blood pressure was 128/80 with pulse at 83.  The doctor will be okay with this but he wants my perfect bp to be 100/60 pulse around 65.  I felt nervous this morning for some reason.  Work has been quiet this week.