heart breaking
My stress this week has been off the charts. My boss (control freak) is upset that the students and staff support my ideas and programmes (after all I am in charge of programmes for the school). So, her infinite wisdom has caused her to try to tie my hands by controlling (over controlling) my budget. Imagine someone saying I cannot spend $100 or more without her approval!! I mean $100!! What can I get for that! I have been going nuts. She even freaked out when I put a hold on a FREE cabinet from another school!! She challenged that there could be delivery charges! OY!!
Add to that, a huge fight with DH and the fact he still has not got a full time job and is really not even looking!
According to my scale I was up 4 pounds. DH even said that was impossible as I was not eating a lot! I tell you, stress does it. Anyway, final WW weigh in showed a 2.4 gain. Noting that it takes me months to lose that much I am quite disheartened. Not totally disheartened as I plan to up the level of effort, but disheartened none the less.
Things have improved with DH who is now making a job effort. We will see how long that lasts. As for work, I plan to take control at budget meeting part 2 on Wed. If she insists on tying my hands, I will resign as head of Programmes and simply be a teacher - something I had considered last year but she blocked me getting any other jobs (yes I have proof, not just sour grapes! I am not the only one she did THAT too). this will leave her to deal with the fact she may not have someone willing to take this over unless a coworker steps up - which I have no problem with. Next year I am on sabbatical and if I do not have another job BEFORE then, I hope to find something while on leave.
So, you can see how stressed I am. Oh and on the dog front, I think she might fly in from Winnipeg next weekend.
Shana Tova to all those celebrating the New Year this weekend.
Sounds like the stress at work is a lot to bear - I think the idea of having a point at which you are willing to walk away is a good one.
I’ve been quarreling w my DH this week too - I can imagine that the no-job situation is not helping at all — hope that turns around soon. One of the lawyers we recently consulted for our surrogacy thing suggested that one of our safest routes might be me taking a year leave from my company and I about went nuts thinking about it (so did my husband) imagining how I’d keep myself occupied and not fall into a bad downward spiral of idleness if I was off work for a year (his suggestion was at least 7 months of it BEFORE arrival of the baby). It seems a more extreme legal answer than we really need (good thing because I dont think we could afford it) but those 2 days of thinking about how I would use my time…. even just thinking about it the power in our relationship was all twisted around — I wouldn’t want to live it and see what it would do to us.
I hope you find ways to release the stress and reduce it permanently. I absolutely believe that stress hormones (is it cortisol?) can cause weight gain & retention.
Shana tova to you too dear Shari. Hope this new year is full of joy and peace for you.
Darned weight gain. Seems like a common theme with updates this week, myself included. Jumped 1.5 pounds overnight when I’ve been stalled at 191.6 for a week! Stress!!