Fighting the Dark Cloud of pudge!!

Not as successful a  week.  I gained .2 pounds according to WW.  Actually, I think it was more like .5 but the pants I wore were of a lighter fabric.

It is a hectic time.  Mom is still in the hospital but possibly will be released tomorrow (Monday). She will be on oxygen 24/7 for the remainder of her life.  She can’t really walk anywhere right now.  I have to coordinate the oxygen delivery with the hospital; find a Personal service worker and pick up a komode we are going to rent.  Meanwhile, Mom said she will sit down with my “brother” and me and we will discuss all the options etc.  I tried to point out that she does not have the luxury of time because I am not cleaning the komode!

I agreed to stay with her the first two nights and I think she figured I would do it all (as I had to most of my life because she did very little).  My “brother” is a friend of the family, and is great, but we cannot expect him to do everything.

I know I sound bitter, but it seems Mom has finally got what she always wanted - people waiting on her hand and foot.  She always had the dream of being Lady of the Manor and since Dad and I did a lot around the house, she wasn’t too far off.

Now she lies in bed telling me how awful her life is - all the while I am doing everything for her, and working, and running my own household.  I do feel badly for her, but part of me is thinking “I told you to quit smoking most of my life and you told me off for doing it.  Now you made your bed and are complaining that you have to lie in it”. 

Yes, I am a selfish bitchy daughter.  I know I must sound that way, but I needed to vent.  Please tell me there is someone out there who understands!!

Well even with a week of stress (Mom is STILL in hospital with lung problems after 1.5 weeks) I managed to lose .6 of a pound!  I am hoping to do better this week.  Mom is touch and go but as the weeks wear on I start to process it all better.  What else can I do?

Have a great week!

After three days of not being very good and stuffing my face with comfort food, my new conclusion is that emotionally one must be ready to diet.  Hopefully I will be again tomorrow!

Cheers!

Sorry I have been busy with Mom in the hospital so did not post on Sat. I had my first weigh in at WW and lost 3.6 pounds.  Noting I had switched from pants to shorts may have had something to do with it, but I was very surprised to have lost anything!

Hopefully the momentum will push me through this week.  Mom is still in the hospital and now with no anticipated release date.  Really, her lungs are back to what they were before she got sick, but they feel she is not well enough to go home. She thinks she may never come home.  I am hoping just rehab/therapy for her.

Chin up and plug on.  We are the sandwich generation!

Ok, I had the CT scan for my intestines. I have finally finished with the emergency root canal (the specialist said we are used to getting the worst cases, but yours is right up there) with the anesthetic wearing off 10 minutes before the end because it took longer than anticipated.  Now my Mother is in the hospital with lung issues (again) - not to mention my work stresses.

Is it any wonder I am having problems sticking to the WW program I started last week??  I wonder if the 2 pounds I am down will still be down on Sat!

Sorry, I had to vent!

After much concern regarding the pains in my intestines;and after having a CT scan (results unknown at this time) I opted to (once again) join WW.  My weight is the highest it has been when joining - granted I was wearing jeans!  I have now been on the diet since Sat.  Work is hard.  I get so hungry and have access to waaaay too much chocolate.  Guess I will have to change the treats the kids get.  But I have been reasonably good.  Will let you know what happens at Sat’s weigh in.  I did sign up for 12 weeks as there was a special (no registration fee!).

On a bright note they now have very yummy 1 point bars!

Cheers!