Fighting the Dark Cloud of pudge!!

Some how I lost another two pounds this week.  Guess that more smaller meals thing is working for me.  And this is with my cheating…  Who knows if it will last.

I hd a job interview. YAY!  Had a feeling there was a pre-chosen candidate so we will have to wait and see.  Meanwhile, things are getting worse in many ways at work.  I had warned them that they were doing something that was not kosher when the principal wanted me to accept kids we couldn’t programme for.  Well, before I got there they accepted some and lo and behold one is crying lawyer at us. Hey, I didn’t even say “told you so!”  when the proverbial sh*t starting hitting the fan.  I will be glad to be gone.

Had a big disagreement with the DH.  He bought me a Mac computer for my gift last December and I am an HP kinda girl.  What can I say?  The damn thing lost some of my photos I needed for work.  Why can’t it have the “are you sure you want to delete this” popup?  I didn’t know I hit delete for the entire thing, I thought it was for just one photo!  Anyway, I packaged it up and gave it back to DH when he returned from his cooling off walk.  I will buy a new HP later this week.  I do far too much of my work on computer for these things to happen again.  I dunno but I figure if I have 4 degrees and have been using computers for over 20 years, I know a thing or two about what is user friendly and what is not.

So, that’s the kind of week this has been.

Cheers!

Well the new clean eating - well cleaner eating - with several small meals a day appears to be working.  I say appears as who knows with these small successes.  I now have something for breakfast (rice cake with a slice of cheese, or slimfast shake or whatever), when I get to work I get hungry so have an orange, then an ensure at lunch.  Around 2pm I have a salad with a small piece of cheese.  Then when I get home I have a normal (for me) dinner. We’ll see how it goes.

Postings have started for next year.  The light at the end of my tunnel.  I am applying for one of the 114 postings (second largest school board in North America).  There were two suitable but one has an acting incumbent.

Not much else to report really.  Mom’s new cat is in heat. I had told her to get a vet in earlier to check her out. The cat is deemed 8 months old.  She is a nice cat, but I am allergic.

And that’s about it!

Once again, I decided to really start afresh with this whole diette thing.  My never ending goal of trying to ‘eat clean’ may actually work.  Well, it more or less worked for one day so far.  But doesn’t overeaters anonymous use ‘one day at time’ as one of their phrases?  Rather interesting noting that Valerie Bertinelli was on that show and is now making money on having lost waitte… one of life’s ironies or self fulfilling prophecies.

I wonder if there is a term for someone who habitally starts afresh.  I mean something that is not negative nor a psychiatric syndrome.  As always I cannot help but think that maybe the underlying root of the problem is not the food but some emotion that has eluded me.  Maybe it eludes us all.  Or maybe, that is just another theory that has been fed (pun intended) to us.  I seem to recall that waitte loss was a lot easier when I was younger.  Yes, in part because I was younger, but maybe it was because I had not read all the theories etc and simply stopped eating as much.  Three meals, four meals, five meals.  Who knows what is right anymore?  Maybe we let too many so called experts guide us until we lost the ability to logically figure it out ourselves???  Just tossing ideas out there.

My dog is overwaitte.  He gets plenty of exercise.  I do not overload him with table scraps or all the other ‘bad’ things experts tell us make overweight pets.  He gets far more exercise than dogs his size are expected to get.  At one point I unknowingly was feeding him 1/2 the amount of food a dog his size should get and he was still overweight.  Yes, he has TWO grandmothers who give him treats, but they do not see him everyday.  I don’t think he is eating out of boredom.  He really just loves food.  He has a slightly slow thyroid so is on meds for that, but never lost any weight when the meds started.  Maybe he is just what he is??  Although he would LOVE to eat three, four or five meals a day if he had only read the studies!

Have a good one!

Cheers!

I want to thank Round and TJ for your comments.  I think I graze partly out of boredom and partly because I rarely have time to sit down and eat at work.  So, effectively, my lunch lasts all afternoon.  Pretty impressive for a salad or a bowl of stew.  Of course my morning latte lasts all day too - thanks to reheating in the microwave!  I AM A VICTIM OF MULTITASKING!

This holiday break has been a tough one.  For some time now I have had intermittent pains in my left abdomen.  I assumed they were ovarian cysts and over the years testing has shown no different.  Perhaps I imagined it but it seemed worse this month.  Coincidentally I had an ultrasound booked (usually the pain is gone by the time I get one) as I am supposed to get them annually.  (My Dad had aorta aneurysms and they are hereditary so his dr told me to get annual ultrasounds once I hit 45).  When I had my pelvic ultrasound (while still in pain) I was told my left ovary was clear and that I should get my bowel checked.  Keeping in mind that last May my SIL died from colon cancer and I now have a friend with colon cancer, this concerned me greatly.  Again, by coincidence I had a dr appt that afternoon.  Although she does not think it is a bowel issue she is referring me to a specialist.  She also is considering endometriosis as the dx.

Add to that, I now have yet another cold!!  Thankfully it is not heading south into my lungs but I am debating calling in sick tomorrow.  I am on the mend I think.

Oh and another interesting development.  My 81 year old mother decided she wanted to get a dog.  Keep in mind that this woman has lung issues so cannot walk a dog.  Hmmmm….  I told her I could not get over to her place and walk one as well as my other morning duties.  I also told her that when I wanted pets she told me if I could not take care of them I could not have them!!  So, following that logic, she cannot walk a dog so she cannot get one.  Yes, we did discuss training it to a litter box, but what kind of life is that for a dog?  Never going out??!!

We then moved to talking about cats.  She definitely wanted a “body” in the condo with her.  She complained that a cat could not let her know someone is at the door.  My DH suggested a louder door bell.  To make an already long story short, we went to the Humane Society to look at cats and dogs.  She found 2 cats she really liked but lo and behold it took her so long to decide and there were so many people wanting animals that I had to leave as DH and I had tickets to see Chitty Chitty Bang Bang (don’t bother seeing that one!!).  We went back the next day and due to some mix up we did not get cat choice #1.  Then we were told that cat choice #2 would not be suitable with my dog visiting as it had been born in the shelter and was a very nervous cat.  I had also noted a cat we talked about the previous day and we went back to look at it.  In the end Mom got that one.

Then came the cat naming.  How mom came up with my name (which is somewhat interesting) I do not know given her name choices for the cat.  Pretty, Pusskins, Sunny (we had had a dog with that name and I don’t think it is good to rename), Little One.  Finally she decided on Beauty.  Personally I preferred tickety-boo but I had no say in the matter.  She is a brown DSH tabby and probably 9 months old.  She follows Mom everywhere and provides great company.

On the downside, Mom is having trouble dealing with the cleaning of the litter box.  Hmmm….  Guess I get stuck with that now.  I actually wonder if my cold is really an allergic reaction to the cat as I do have some cat allergies.  Meanwhile, my dog desperately wants to play with it.  She has swatted him a couple of times but not hurt him.  She also follows behind him and spies on him so I suspect they will get along fabulously as time goes on.

What about this economy??  DH is still looking for full time work!  Not a great time to have moved to Toronto, but perhaps better than having stayed in the US!  I found a job at the TTC (Toronto Transit Commission) I considered applying for but then I thought what if they lay off?  At least where I am I have seniority AND if I move elsewhere I lose the sabbatical.  On the flip side, if I do leave, I get the sabbatical salary in cash when I go.  (I have been paid 80% salary for 2.5 years so far so that I get money while I am off).  I can cancel the sabbatical and get the money any time-  which we may need in these economic times.

Such confusion.  I really hate not being in some control of what is going on!

So, happy campers, that is where I am right now.

Have a good one!