It’s all up to me

Sorry I have been missing but life just gets more hectic. I have resigned myself that until we move I’m going to have to roll w/the punches. The benefit was a huge success. Still haven’t had time to go over the money but there were tons of people there and the weather was beautiful. My back is still a bit sore but it’s improving to the point I did the 20 minute TJ DVD this morning.

Today is our anniversary and I’m reminded how lucky I am to have my hubby. He sent me flowers @ work!!! He’s finally learning that it’s more important for others to see my flowers than for them to be @ home.

My last attempt to post this didn’t work so we’ll see if it takes this time. Here’s the web address for the story about Kyle. I would guess you’ll have to cut and paste the web address and I think the story vanishes after a few days but feel free to check him/us out.

http://www.thonline.com/article.cfm?id=258016

Here’s the link to Kyle’s story. I don’t know if you’ll have to cut and paste or if it will link directly and I think the story vanishes after a few days but it should work.

http://www.thonline.com/article.cfm?id=258016

I’m probably going to be AWOL for a while b/c of this benefit. I actually woke up b/c I was making a list in my head of things I need to do today. Food hasn’t been good but I know things could be a whole lot worse. Back is feeling better but still tender so exercise isn’t even an option at this point.

Woke up to a great surprise. Our local paper interviewed us on Thursday for a story on Kyle and his benefit. I figured there’d be a little story and hopefully a picture on page 5-6 but I grabbed the paper from the box this morning and there was his beautiful face on the front page. There’s an online version of the paper and you can’t access the current day’s story until later in the day but when I can I’ll post a link. It was a great story and they really did a nice job conveying the challenges we face on a daily basis w/o making it look like we’re complaining or bemoaning the fact that we have a sick child. Couldn’t have written it better myself. You’ll even finally get to see a little bit of me (since I can’t figure out how to upload pictures) b/c I’m holding him in the photo.

Keep your fingers crossed for good weather tomorrow!!!!! Benefit time

I’m still not exercising and so far the food control is going well. This morning I weighed in at 219 which is down a pound or 2. My biggest problem today is probably going to be not eating enough…it has been CRAZY!!!!!

I need to seriously come up w/a plan for this weekend. A group is doing a benefit for my son and we are going to be busy, busy, busy. It’s probably a good thing that I’m injured b/c finding time to exercise would have been a challenge. To avoid overeating and eating crap on Saturday I need to plan my meals. Sunday will be spent at the breakfast so there’s actually decent food there and I’m going to avoid the bake sale tent as much as possible. I’ll worry about Sunday on Saturday night but for now I need to get the rest of this benefit organized.

Hope you’re all doing well.

I went to the chiropractor yesterday after school and learned that my left leg is 8 mm shorter than my right. Actually, it’s only 6mm shorter but my hips are unbalanced so that adds the extra 2 mm. He twisted me around and popped a few things and I feel better. He commented that I’m really, really flexible which actually makes it harder for him to adjust me but that it’s good overall. Today I felt better but still could tell my back was bothering me so I had another appt. after school. He wants me back on Friday so hopefully I’ll be able to workout again, soon.

Thanks for all of the supportive comments and advice. My “challenge” will continue even though I’m taking a break from exercise. I am going to be 100% conscious in my eating. At first I told myself that I was going to be perfect, but that’s setting me up for disaster. Instead, I’m taking each situation as it comes. For instance, in a meeting today there were tons of snacks on the table. I wasn’t going to have anything and then realized that I was truly hungry. It was time for a snack so I had 1 mini peppermint patty. Of course I wanted more but I stopped and I’m very proud of that.

Thank you, Round, for your wise advice.  I have been fortunate to only have had minor back problems that went away after a day or 2 and I couldn’t imagine having to life w/lifelong back pain so I’m going to take it easy on this one.

I got up at my normal time and either planned to do bootcamp or my yoga dvd.  At first I thought my back felt pretty good so I was going to do bootcamp and just take the low-impact route.  After I got dressed and went to the bathroom I had already tightened up a bit so I decided to go the yoga route.  I figured some stretching would be good for me.  After about 20 minutes I realized that even that was too much.  Once the DVD segued into the pilates portion I knew that I was flirting w/disaster so I just quit.  Me, quit.  I’m ok w/it, though, b/c I know that taking it easy now will allow me to get back into action sooner.  So today I’m making an appointment w/my chiropractor and hopefully in a couple of days I’ll be back to myself. 

My challenge now is to not let this forced break from exercise turn into an excuse to pig out b/c that’s my typical response.  But I kind of proved to myself last night that I could handle food better b/c I made lasagne for supper (it was supposed to be Sunday on my “cheat” day, long story) and instead of watching my hubby eat it and me eating my WW meal I decided to have 1 piece in place of my WW meal and some applesauce.  I told myself I couldn’t have any garlic bread and didn’t.  I also passed on the M&M’s that I know are buried in the freezer, although I had to brush my teeth after supper to accomplish that.  Anyway, I showed myself that I’m in control and it felt good.  I can do it for a few more days, I know I can.  But I am going to make my hubby get rid of the candy, I’m not superman!

Current weight: ???

I don’t know if it’s good or bad that I generally can’t weigh myself on Mondays b/c I sleep in the guest room since I get up so early to workout. We have a nurse on Sunday nights and I don’t particularly want to stumble upstairs in shorts and a sports bra at 4 am. I have weighed myself on Mondays before so it’s not like that would keep me better on track on Sunday so for now I’ll stick w/this plan.

I slept horribly last night and I don’t know why but it wasn’t fun getting up this morning to workout. The good news is when you get up early it doesn’t do you any good to quit before you’re done b/c everyone is still asleep and there’s nothing to do. I’m a bit concerned b/c I tweaked my back while I was doing pushups w/my shins on the stability ball but hopefully I’ll feel better tomorrow. I’m going to get up to workout regardless but if I have pain in my back I’ll do yoga instead. I’m not going to count that against my bootcamp/elliptical challenge b/c it’s due to an injury, not my choice. Isn’t it amazing how I can rationalize???

Progress toward workout goal: 120/300

Current weight: 219.5

Not a lot of time to write but I didn’t want to miss a day. Started the 2nd week of bootcamp so now I’m adding 2-12 minute workouts after the regular workout. I’ll be glad when the 30 days is over b/c I think I’ll be bored doing essentially the same workouts over and over but I know they’re effective b/c I’m sweating my butt off.

Progress toward workout goal: 119/300

Current weight: 219.5 (-1.5)

I almost skipped my morning weigh-in b/c I was worried that anything other than a loss would set me up for a bad day and since I was baking cookies I didn’t need anything to give me an excuse to eat. I was thrilled to be under 220 and with the last batch of cookies in the oven I’m proud to say that I made it through the day only eating 1/2 a cookie. I kind of invented a recipe and I truly wanted to know if they were any good so I split one w/my hubby. Given the fact that I baked about 15 dozen cookies I’m pretty happy w/the results.

It was also interesting to see how much easier the bootcamp workout is when I’m not doing it at 4 am. On the upper body workout, which I did today, you do something similar to burpees which I hate. If you’re not familiar w/burpees, you start in a standing position, jump down into a plank position and then jump back up to your feet. This workout adds a jump after you get to your feet and you do as many as you can for a minute. Usually I just do regular burpees but I was able to add the extra jump the whole time and I could probably have gone about 20 seconds longer. I was huffing and puffing like a fool but it was much easier than usual.

I really need to stay out of the 220’s. It’s funny how I can feel fat at 223 when at one point I felt so skinny. I know that 215 will be the same once I pass it by (and 200, and 175) but for now I’ll feel like I’m wasting away when I get there. I haven’t tried on the dress that I want to wear to the benefit but I’m curious to see if I’m getting close. One week to go, so that should keep me motivated.

Progress toward workout goal: 118/300