I’m ready
Being as superstitious as I am I don’t want to declare that all of the chaos of the last few weeks is behind me but I do feel like things are starting to get back to normal. I did a lot of sleeping over the weekend, something I desperately needed. I know problems from the pneumonia are still with me and probably will be for some time but I at least feel like I’m back in the driver’s seat. And as everyone who knows me will admit, I have a huge need to be in control.
So I am happy to say that I am ready to get back to my healthy lifestyle. My energy has improved to where I can workout every day although I’ll probably still limit my cardio to 30 minutes a day and then alternate weights for upper and lower body. Before you all start thinking how wise I am to ease myself back into things you need to realize that our gym is down to 1 treadclimber so EVERYONE is limited to 30 minutes. As soon as the 2nd one is fixed I’ll be back to longer periods of time, hopefully the repairs will coincide w/my increased health 
Food, as always, is my biggest obstacle but I feel confident that I will make healthy choices. I have to. I want to be healthy and a good example for my boys but I also want to be smokin’ hot. I have been buying smaller clothes on clearance and I want to wear them. I popped back into the 240’s over the weekend and I feel like a huge blimp. It’s funny that a month ago I would have been thrilled to be 240 but now it’s a number I never want to see again. What I need to realize is that if I make the proper choices I won’t ever see it again. I do realize that the events of the last few weeks have been beyond my control and would throw nearly everyone off course so I’m not going to berate myself for my indulgences but I need to declare that the time for comfort eating is over. Food is fuel and my body is a machine! For now I’m going to have to take it one day at a time and go back to being very strict and planning ahead. Before I go to bed I will determine what I am going to eat tomorrow and pack my gym bag so I can go after school. I’m back!!!!!
We get used to routine and stability and control. When things get go outside of that, it forces us to do things abnormally. It makes it harder to do the right thing sometimes. I find when I am sick or if I had to go through the things you did or if I am traveling, then it’s really hard to learn a new process because I am busy or have no energy. So maybe when going through these things, it can be looked at as yet another learning process.
After church today my husband got Wendy’s for everyone but I wasn’t interested. (I said I had my meal yesterday, and boy was it a meal, I don’t think I need anything else for a week) Anyways, the Wendy’s…can you believe it hardly bothered me that they were getting that? The only thing that really bothered me about it was that I was the passeneger who had to hold everything while he was driving until we got home. He even asked me to give him some fries! ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND? I mean, how much temptation was this test to be? I said no way. I felt like lighting up a cigarette and asking him to hold it for me. OOOOhhh! (No I don’t smoke, but he used to, and he would’ve gotten the point)
Off I went leaving them with their evil food while I went to pay some evil money for my new bathing suit.
I’m so glad you’re feeling better. I cannot believe you think the elliptical is hard because I tried the treadclimer once so far and thought it was hard. I have to try again but 2 of the 4 machines were broke and the other two taken. You know what this tells me..? That all of those machines are hard at first and then it quickly gets easier. I think when you’re ready for it, and ready for something new and inspiring you should try it. Just start with something simple, like 5-10 min and then increase it each time. But do it before you do the treadclimber not after. That’s what I’m gonna do with the treadclimber. I think Hveeck said the spin class wiped the floor with her and now she loves it, it got easy for her quickly too. I want to do that someday too
I’m not much for superstitions. I admit it’s extremely easy to get the thoughts, but I quickly ignore it before I let myself believe it. HOWEVER… I will say that I have tried not to say certain things that I do not want to come true! Only because how many times have I said something too soon!
You’re back? Me, too! Let’s go for a perfect day, Brandie! I’ve got your back…I won’t let anyone make you hold the french fries!
I’m proud of you for dealing with all this stress and not falling completely off the wagon. And I’m so happy that you’re home and that everything appears to be smooth!
I’ve been sick now for about 3 weeks, and I’m finally feeling back to semi-normal today. Today may be my first real workout in weeks if I keep this up. Let’s make this week count!
-kt
I’ve been away for awhile. It sounds as if you have been through heck & back lately. I hope that is behind you, too. Take care!