It’s all up to me

I have always known that I like predictability and routine but it’s not until that routine is disrupted that I realize HOW MUCH I crave the stability.  I’m finally inching my way back toward normality and I can honestly feel my stress level decreasing.  My normal Saturday routine is to get up when Kyle does and do pilates while he’s having his breathing treatment.  Thankfully he slept until 6:30 this morning and I was considering skipping the workout b/c I’m still getting my butt kicked by this pneumonia.  But I figured I would try it and if it was too much for me then I would stop.  I am SO glad that I did it.  It wasn’t too hard at all and I’m pleased at how quickly my strength is returning.  Plus, it just sets such a healthy tone for the rest of the day.

I’m also proud of myself for yesterday.  To use everyone’s favorite new phrase, I screwed the pooch again on food and I considered skipping my workout after school.  I really, really, didn’t want to go.  My eating had already been off-track for the day and I knew my brother was coming over for supper so it would continue to be unhealthy.  For a variety of reasons, though, I decided to workout anyway.  As soon as I stepped onto the treadclimber I was so happy that I had made the right choice.  As a side note, taking 2 weeks away from the gym has allowed me to see how much emptier it is now.  Before we all got sick the parking lot was packed when I would get there and the last few days it has maybe been 1/4 full.  I’m sorry that people have let go of their resolutions but selfishly I’m thrilled.  I hated having to wait for machines!

So now that things are getting closer to normal I’m going to set a new goal.  Prior to getting pregnant w/Kyle my low weight was 223.  His birthday is April 6th and my goal is to get to or below that weight by his birthday.  I’m at 239 as of now and even though 16 pounds in 6-7 weeks might seem like a lot I know the 1st 5 are going to fall off pretty quickly once I get back to focused eating.

Days on plan this month:  1

Progress toward workout goal:  177/250