Trying to be realistic
I am finally coming to the realization that what we have gone through the last 1-2 weeks is more than average stress. To me, I know that we have been dealing w/a lot but when I explain to others what has been going on jaws have literally dropped. Today I finally listened to my own story and I acknowledged that we’re dealing w/many difficult issues. Realizing that, I need to readjust my expectations for myself and my weightloss. Last night, for instance, I was very hungry. I ate my typical food and wanted more. There was cheesecake in the fridge (my hubby has until tonight to either eat it or toss it in the garbage) and I resisted it. Instead I popped a 100 calorie bag of popcorn. Then I was still hungry so I ate about 20 cherry tomatoes. I’m proud of the healthy choices I made but I’m not counting it as a day on-plan b/c I went over my calories. It may sound like I’m being harsh but if I begin to cut myself slack things don’t work. I would rather not meet my goal honestly than feel like I cheated to get there.
So in my effort to be more realistic I’m going to plan to stay on-plan but not flip out if I’m not 100% perfect. It may sound like I’m contradicting myself; being strict yet going easy on myself, but in my mind it works. I think I’m going to keep my workouts to every other day and no longer than 30 minutes until I fully get over this pneumonia. I was so exhausted this morning and I think it’s b/c of the cardio I did last night.
All of the other stress I’m trying to leave in the appropriate place. School is a wreck right now; I don’t want to go into it but the inmates are running the asylum. Just as a small example, the guy in the room next to mine was absent yesterday and one of the kids threatened physical harm to his sub. She was held in the office for the remainder of the afternoon but today there was no consequence. Today, when he talked w/this kid she said she would do it again. Nice.
Plus, my older son is getting sicker. I’m sure he has pneumonia as well. My hubby is taking him to the doctor right now and I’m guessing he’ll be out of school for the rest of the week. I wish I could go to bed and wake up in June.
Enough griping, that won’t change anything. I know it will get better and I will just take each day as it comes.
Days on plan this month: 1
Progress toward workout goal: 174/250
You definitely have a lot on your plate. The fact that you are really trying and are making an effort is amazing to me! I am such a wimp when it comes to not emotional eating.
I hope you and your son feel 100% better soon!
Yes, definitely more than your average version of stress, which is already high.
I understand what you’re saying about allowing yourself room for error without a flip out. When I’m getting into a crazy strict mindset it’s self defeating. I crash and burnout quicker than if I’d just be realistic and forgiving of an extra few hundred calories. Keeping a positive mental attitude is what it’s about, is what I think I’m saying.
Who the heck is 100% perfect anyhow? My son - that’s who! Just kidding! I’m not like that - but I’ll bet in your line of work you meet a lot of parents who are.
Hope the big baby boy is okay soon, update when you can. Poor thing.
Take it slow, Brandie. You’ve had so much going on, it’s going to take a little bit to get everything back in order. You’re doing great! I can’t believe you’re already exercising again!
You have a lot on your plate. Not only do you have long term stress from having a child with special needs but you were all real sick. Not to mention you are a teacher. That in itself can carry day to day stress because it is not a typical 9-5 job where you go in and do your work and go home. You have to deal with unpredictable kids. I think you are doing well and have your head on pretty straight for all you are dealing with. You take care
Joy
I had a grand ole comment typed up yesterday when the 2 yr flipped the switch on the strip and out goes my computer. OOOhhh he was in trouble. Just wanted to say “It’s all up to you”. You do what you have to and keep on going. No one said this was easy, or that we’d do it perfectly. There’s probably only a few who can be so dedicated. Hang in there.