Birthday/pity party
I have decided to quit having birthdays. Not that I’m going to die, I’m just not going to celebrate them. Yes, today’s my birthday and I’m 35 and I have been spending it in the hospital. That’s where I have been for the last 2 birthdays and the one 3 years ago was on an airplane on the way to seek medical treatment for my son. I was never a big birthday person but it would be nice to have a day just to relax and be the focus of attention.
The morning started out well. I slept until almost 8:00 and considering the fact that I went to bed at 8:40 last night that was pretty good. Then I hopped on the scale and was thrilled to see 233.2. That’s a 3 pound loss from last week w/only 1 day of exercise. I truly think that fighting a fever must burn extra calories b/c I know I stayed at my calorie range or went over every day. Plus, I’m on steroids now which I have heard causes you to puff up.
Then I left my bedroom and learned that my younger son was sick. He was napping but I figured I had better get showered and cleaned up so I could take him to acute care when he got up. I did and we were admitted. I felt so bad for him and selfishly felt bad for myself that yet again, I get to spend my birthday at the hospital. Fortunately his blood cultures were good and he’s just a bit dehydrated so 24 hours w/an IV should be enough.
And although I have been in the hospital w/him too many times to count I have never been there when I was sick. My hubby and mom conspired to make me agree to go home tonight to get some rest so that’s why I’m here. My mom took the day off tomorrow so she’s taking the night shift at the hospital and I’m going to head in at 6:30 so I don’t miss the doctor on rounds. He’s our regular doctor and really knows our family so I want to make sure to speak w/him. And, after listening to my symptoms he agreed that I either have pneumonia or an adult version of RSV. Even though I know I’m not doing him any good if I’m there coughing all night and that I’ll be no good to him when he’s home but I still feel like the worst mom in the world for being at home in my own bed while he’s at the hospital.
One good bit of news to report was that I had no desire to turn to food. When my hubby brought some things to the hospital I had him grab me fruit, yogurt and almonds. We did go out for supper w/my older son b/c I realized that since Kyle has been born I haven’t spent my birthday with him but I stopped eating when I had eaten enough and I only ate about 1/2 of a piece of cake. And since Sunday is my high-calorie day it all fit into the cycle.
Man, I’m really ready for spring.
Happy Birthday! I’m so sorry that it had to fall on a day with so much bad stuff going on. I hope you and your son are much better soon. ***big hugs***
Happy Birthday! Definitely not worst mom, it takes a really good mom to save some of herself for herself and others. You are doing GREAT! Just get better now, and once you get your son home I trust things will be better. You really are doing well on all the things, hope you get to have a *real* birthday soon! well, not for at least a year! lol Delita
Happy birthday, although you may not feel very ‘happy’ right now, I know. Look after yourself because you can’t look after anyone else if you aren’t healthy. Try to get some rest when you can, your son is in good and loving hands.
Sending you birthday wishes - and happiness-in-general wishes - along with get-well wishes for your son! Congrats on not turning to food, that is a huge accomplishment!
Oh, and … take rest and respite when you can get it. You deserve it and it just makes sense to nurture the nurturer.
I’m sorry your birthday didn’t turn out to be ideal. I hope you had good rest and that your son will feel better soon, that cute babyhead.
I hope, that once everything settles down and there’s better health all around - that you’re able to make up for it and take a few hours for yourself.
Poor thing. I’m so sorry you’re having to deal with so much at a time when you should be able to relax and enjoy. Hope good health finds you and your family quickly.
Hugs!
Hey chicky. First of all, HAPPY BERFDAY. Secondly, I’m so sorry it was spent in the hospital, but I hope everything has turned out ok. It’s perfectly fine to throw yourself a pity party ever once in a while. Sending you positive vibes…
-kt