It’s all up to me

The good news is the levy passed and pretty convincingly, about 63% in favor.  I’m glad that it just didn’t barely squeak by at 50.1%, this way we can say that we have true community support.  There will still probably be cuts for next year but instead of being 4-5 million in the hole we’re only 1.5-2.5 million down. 

The bad news is I am still sick as a dog and I don’t like it.  I considered staying home yesterday but I was giving a test and I don’t like to be gone on test days in case they have a question.  I actually felt pretty good yesterday until about lunchtime and then the ickies hit.  Last night was horrendous.  I had no energy and I couldn’t get warm enough.  It took 5 layers and a blanket just to stop the goosebumps.  To make it worse my hubby really pissed me off.  Normally he is the most thoughtful guy in the world which makes his bonehead choices even worse.  Basically he did nothing to help me.  Our general division of labor in the evenings is he takes care of our older son when needed but at almost 6 he’s pretty self-sufficient.  He also makes supper and cleans the kitchen afterward.  I take care of our younger son who requires attention almost constantly.  Last night it was no different.  I was laying on the floor next to him and my hubby was watching tv or on the computer.  In his defense, our son doesn’t respond to him at all, it has something to do w/his disease.  Kyle won’t eat for him and he won’t go to sleep for him, so I realize that me going to bed at 6:30 like I wanted to do was out of the question.  But he should have freakin’ offered.  I didn’t want to bring it up b/c I hate reminding him that our son doesn’t do well w/him but I just wanted to crawl into a little hole for about 15 hours.

So I was quiet.  All night.  And he was quiet.  All night.  Finally, about 8:00, I said “Why are you so quiet?”  “Because I thought you were mad so I didn’t say anything.”  That was the end of talking for the night.  He KNEW I was mad and either was too much of a wuss to ask why or he knew why and wasn’t going to deal with me.  Apparently I’m so scary that a 6′2″ man is afraid of me when I’m angry.  Granted, I’m sure I was a grouch b/c I didn’t feel good but that’s why I was angry.  Plus, when he was sick over Christmas break I sent him to bed every night at 7:00 and took overnight responsibility for Kyle for nearly 2 weeks straight.  Grrrr.  I actually went to bed w/o even telling him good-night.  This is one that we’re going to have to talk about.

Today I’m staying home.  The kids are working on a reading activity in pairs so they don’t need me and the podiatrist called and they had a cancellation.  So I’m going to go to the doctor, come home and sleep for about 6 hours.  Bliss.

I have no clue how I’m doing on food b/c all I have wanted lately is soup and peanut butter sandwiches.  Obviously I haven’t worked out and I don’t even care.  If I feel better after a nap I might try some pilates today just to strech my muscles b/c they ache from sickness and inactivity.

Hope all of ya’lls day goes better than mine!

5:00

My hubby redeemed himself b/c after I stormed off to bed last night he came in a shut off the baby monitor so I didn’t have to get up w/Kyle.  We talked about why I was upset and all is better.

I went to the podiatrist and he said at this point the problems are b/c I have flat feet and the nerve is close to the skin so when my shoes press against it there is pain.  For now he said to ice 2x daily and the nurse showed me how to relace my shoes so there isn’t as much pressure.  They felt great.

As we were leaving he said to me “You should really get that pneumonia taken care of.”  WHAT???  I thought it was just a little cough but he said “Nope, sounds like pneumonia.”  I went home and talked w/our nurse and she agreed that my symptoms indicated more than a cold.  They tested me for influenza and pneumonia and both were negative but the doc said that if I’m not improving by the weekend to come back in b/c it could turn into pneumonia very easily.  Great.  So since Kyle catches illnesses like Babe Winkleman catches fish my mom is coming up tonight to take care of Kyle so I can go to bed.  I’m going to try to go to school tomorrow b/c I’m showing a video and won’t have to talk.  Plus, I’ll be able to get about 11 hours of sleep tonight which should help a lot.

At least I hope I’ll lose some weight out of this.  I haven’t eaten very much and I do think fighting a fever burns calories.  That’s at least something positive