Nerves
I am a bundle of nerves right now and I don’t like this feeling. Generally I handle things pretty well, keeping an eye on what I can control and not worrying about what I can’t. But right now the stuff I can’t control is so overwhelming and hitting all at once. And they’re major things so it’s not like it’s no big deal if things don’t turn out well.
The most pressing concern is that my son is having surgery tomorrow. It’s nothing major, tubes in his ears, but he’s being sedated and it’s scary. I’ll be much happier this time tomorrow when I’m cuddling him at home.
Also, a week from tomorrow is the vote on the levy for our school district. I had been somewhat confident that it would pass but today I’m not so sure. Our newspaper did a story yesterday on it and also posted a favorable editorial about the vote. You can go online and read comments that people post to stories and every single comment was hostile. One person actually wrote something about how we wouldn’t need the levy if teachers bought their own donuts for a change. WTF? Is that what the public thinks we spend money on, freakin’ donuts! Then I find out that even if it does pass my job still might be in jeopardy b/c the state has reduced the amount of money we will receive and since my job is in an elective department it would be a logical cut. I know that we should have been saving more but w/my hubby being back in school the last 3 years our savings is nearly kaput. We have been planning everything based on us going back to a 2-income household this fall; instead we may become a 0-income household.
I do, though, still have some strange feeling that things will be ok. I just hope that it’s the obvious “ok” scenario instead of something that I’ll look back on in 10 years and be thankful for. I’ll keep you all posted.
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This morning I got up early and did a weighted pilates DVD, always forgetting how hard it is. I was considering skipping it b/c I was so tired last night but when the alarm went off at 4:00 I was surprisingly ready to get up. Tomorrow we have to be at the hospital by 5:00 but I should be able to take a nap in the afternoon. If I’m still tired on Wednesday I’ll skip my 4:00 workout.
Days on plan this month: 18
Progress toward workout goal: 167/250
Aww sorry to hear these things. I hope the day passes quick enough and you and your son are home happy and healthy.
I always support schools,especially taxes and programs that help teachers. It’s not fair they keep leaning on them this way. Nevada is lowest (they say on the news) in getting money to teachers, not only income but things like pencils, paper and stuff. The teachers often have to pay for them. I hope everything works out in your favor.
I hope everything works out okay with the job/school situation. Do keep us posted.
I know how you feel about the surgery… my son had the same one and though it isn’t major in the surgical world, it certainly was major in mine! The boys and I will say a prayer for you tonight.
And I hope all works out with your work situation. Being a teacher is such a thankless job sometimes. I am so thankful for the teachers my boys have, and if I ever get loaded I am sending them lots of cashola! And my second grade teacher, too. She was fab.
Get some rest!
Yeah, it seems like there is nothing better than money to bring out the ugly side of people, I can’t believe what that person said about teachers spending too much money on donuts! How ridiculous…apparently they never had the privilege a proper education themselves! Hang in there, and keep taking good care of yourslef.
Hang in there, Dear Heart! I know the surgery will go fine. Still, I also know how scary it is. Hopefully, right now you’re home and snuggling up with your son.
Yeah, teaching is a demanding job. I thought I knew that going in. I once had a principal say that he expected us to give at least an extra hour each day. That wasn’t a big surprise but then he said, “No one ever pretended that teaching would be easy and you all knew that going in. You should EXPECT to do a lot of unpaid work and not complain about it.” I was kind of surprised about his attitude. Of course we knew it would be hard but I don’t think that means we’re all a bunch of martyrs. Sometimes, I think the public feels like we’re supposed to.
Hey there. I’m sending you positive vibes for the surgery and the vote. I know you must be stressed and scared. Check back in with us.
-kt
Hey, baby girl! How’s the big boy feeling? Hope this is over and behind you now.
We got about 4 inches of snow and about half an inch of ice on top of it. Actually, the roads don’t look too bad from the front window but they were a mess early this morning. We’re supposed to have more move in tonight and tomorrow morning but this first onslaught wasn’t as bad as they predicted.
Oh, I see DH pulling in the drive. Let me go be the loving wifey!