Compliments
Last night was full of peaks and valleys. I ate more than I should have which is why I didn’t count it as a day on plan. But my hubby decided to go to bed early which set me up for a major issue of mine: secret eating. My first thought when he said he was going to bed was “great, now I can eat this, that and the other thing.” Then I asked myself what I would get from that. Not only would I be ingesting calories I didn’t need, I would be doing it in a shameful way. So I made a promise to myself that if I ate anything that I had to tell him about it in the morning. I didn’t eat another bite.
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A while ago I was complaining that people weren’t noticing that I had lost weight but after 50 pounds gone I’m getting more and more compliments. The funny thing is, the way I react often depends upon who is paying the compliment. Today a colleague commented on how good I was looking and all I could think was “So, that must mean that I looked awful before.” Part of the reason for my apprehension is this woman and I aren’t close and we really don’t have that much in common but I could definitely tell that her compliment was sincere. Not 2 minutes after I ended that conversation I went to our morning social where they were serving donuts. I wanted to dive head first into the tray. Granted, I LOVE donuts but they usually aren’t very tempting to me b/c I always eat breakfast at home. But I think I was uncomfortable w/what she said and knew that if I ate enough donuts that she’d quit saying it. I resisted the donuts and now I am so happy that I did.
I’m also proud that I held firm to my plan to exercise instead of attend the meeting after school that was rescheduled from yesterday. The guy in charge asked me again to see if my plans had changed and I said “Nope, I’m busy after school today.” I didn’t explain, he didn’t ask. We workout at the same gym, though, so I was hoping that I wouldn’t run into him there. I did my hour on the treadclimber and then beat it out of there before he could figure out why I was “busy”.
Days on plan this month: 14 (no change)
Progress toward workout goal: 164/250
It’s a fine line that one has to walk when commenting on weight, even when they are complimenting! I hate when someone super skinny that I don’t really know says something. GRRRRR On the bright side though, 50 pounds is crazy awesome! It’s nice that people are noticing!
Secret eating is a big big problem for me too, to the point that my friends think I am a saint eating-wise (because they don’t see the junk I eat when I’m alone). I’m trying to use this site to break that habit - having to admit my daily food. Also, congrats on 50!! So awesome!