What is holding me back?
My eating has not gone well this last week or so. I’m proud to say that I have stayed on track w/exercise but I don’t think a diet of PB&J and peanut clusters counts for healthy. I haven’t completely thrown in the towel but I only have a grasp on one corner of it. And beyond my pants getting a bit snug compared to 2 weeks ago, my body feels sluggish and goofy. Not to get too gross but my bathroom routine has changed b/c I’m eating very few veggies and less fiber. I know I would feel better if I went back to my normal way of eating but that thought hasn’t seriously crossed my mind. Part of it is that the Christmas goodies taste so darn good. I love cauliflower and broccoli, but they don’t hold a candle to peanut clusters and kolaches. The other part (and probably the stronger pull) is the social aspect of eating. I would love to proclaim here that I am going to forego all of the holiday goodies b/c I’m worth it and my body deserves healthy food but I’m not there right now. What I am going to do is read the Oprah article about her falling off the wagon to see if I can find some inspiration and come up w/a plan. I don’t want to wait until January 5th to get back on track, I could honestly gain 10 pounds by then. And even though there will be fewer parties and goodies laying around in January, it’s not like it will be easy just b/c I flip the page on the calendar. Oh well, enough deep searching for now.
Sadly, I need to get working on breakfast. It’s Christmas Eve and this morning we have a special breakfast w/just my hubby and the boys and we’ll open our gifts to each other. I also have an eye appt (I can’t believe the office is open today) and I need to give my hubby enough time to shovel the driveway. Yes, we got more snow. But I did get up at 4:25 to do a TJ workout b/c this is the only time all day I would have time to do it. I’m going to hang on to that proud feeling and have it take me through my day.
Progress toward workout goal: 137/250
It’s probably the effect of poor eating and the soical eating like you speak of. Maybe it doesn’t take long, but even myself I thought my belly looked fatter than usual as of lately. Could be my imagination because I felt great 2 days ago! This will all pass and we’ll have a whole bunch of months ahead of us to be on track, more eaily. It’s really great that you keep up the exercise going because atleast you are holding onto that ONE corner! I’m going away tomorrow, my husbands’ gift to me was a night away, semi-alone. He will meet up with me for dinner and a show, but ultimately, I get the day and night, and next morning to MY… SELF! WHOOOOOO HOOO! I called the hotel/ C A S I N O (apparently that’s a bad word…the comment would not submit) and they have wireless internet in my room but they DO NOT have an exercise room. HOW disappointed I am because I have not been to the gym in two days and besides I SO want to try one in a hotel now that I live my life differently!
Anyhoo, getting off topic…. Hang in there! Merry Christmas.
I am with you on the being held back by something. I think there is definitely a social factor for me. I see my friends, family, and co-workers eating whatever they want and it makes me just say the hell with it, and eat it too. What I notice is that I seem to have a far higher threshold for being “done”. Somehow I can’t stop once I start. I keep waiting for the moment I feel ready, but I think I just need to force myself, like you said. Good Luck!