Now I know why people think fat = stupid
I remember hearing about a study a while back where someone surveyed a bunch of people and in general, people thought that fat people were stupid compared to their thin counterparts. It never made sense to me until this week because at least for me, fat does equal stupid.
My plan to ease up a bit but still stay w/i control is gone. I’m still doing fairly well during the day but once school is over I throw in the towel. Here’s why I think I’m stupid for doing this, here is what I know:
- I know how to lose weight (eat healthy and exercise)
- I know that I feel better when I eat healthy and exercise
- I know that I have more energy when I eat healthy and exercise
- I know that it’s really not that hard to eat healthy and exercise
But knowing all that I’m STILL choosing to eat crap (and lots of it) and skip exercise for the mall. I don’t even really like shopping, it was just an excuse to avoid the gym last night.
I would love to say that I’m going to get myself back on plan today but it’s not going to happen. My schedule is too weird today and tonight so I’m not even going to try. Once again, stupid! Instead, I’m going to make sure at least that I incorporate exercise into both days this weekend. Hopefully that small change will lead to bigger things and then on Monday I’ll get back on plan.
The good news is I’m not avoiding this site, generally when I go off plan I don’t blog until the damage is done. Lame attempt at progress, I know, but at least I’m improving a little bit.
Hope you all had a better week than I did.
I don’t think that you should beat yourself up as much as you are. Making changes, regardless of what they are, is very, very difficult, and we always tend to be our worst critics.
What you’re saying about society’s perception of the overweight population makes a lot of sense, and when you look at it that way, it’s easy to feel defeated about the choices you’re making. Food is a vice, the same way as alcohol or cigarettes, and quitting any habit is really hard.
I’m currently working on this with my mom right now (bear with me):
I quit smoking at the beginning of this year, after a few unsuccessful attempts last year. I’ve only smoked for 5 or 6 years, but it was still challenging. I didn’t use any patches, or weaning, I just quit cold turkey. I think that prepared me for this lifestyle change, because I already know that there are benefits to the sacrifices. After months of not smoking, and a few months of eating well and exercising, I can feel the difference in my body. That said… when this drama unfolded last month with my ex, I smoked a few packs because I felt stressed, although I could feel disgust in my veins, and it made me feel awful.
I suppose what I’m trying to say, in a very roundabout way, is that quitting anything is so hard, especially if you’ve never had to give up something before. Too most of us, food isn’t a vice, it’s comfort, and it’s really really tough to WANT to give up a favourite teddy-bear, even if you know it’s going to make you a better person.
We all have slip-ups… Stay positive!
Awww… you are having a hard time, but you are being so hard on yourself. I have been doing this for three months and haven’t seen a whole lot of results so I know how you feel. It’s just so tiring. It’s not just you. You CAN do this!!! Just think about all of the reasons why it is worth it (and then you can remind me the 4 days a week I HATE it and want to give up!).
I wonder, Brandie, if you’re feeling out of control. We did great over the summer and now school and kids are overwhelming us. When we’re off, we can do the work that needs to be done and still find some time for ourselves. Teaching is so consuming, there’s not much time left for us and so we look for comfort elsewhere. Who wants to spend the little bit of time we have struggling with diet and exercise.
I think I’m going to do some heavy-duty thinking this weekend and try to find some kind of solution. Maybe we can both give it some thought and she what we can shake up.
Hang on tight. The inspiration is out there. We just have to figure out how to uncover it.