It’s all up to me

We’re meeting w/a builder tonight so I won’t be able to go to the gym.  No problem, I know it’s ok to skip a workout now and then.  So what did I do?  I got up at 4:00 to do TJ Cardio Party.  Knowing myself as I do, I’m so scared that if I skip a workout that I’ll have so much more trouble controlling my eating.  Of course I know that I CAN control my eating, but I don’t feel strong enough yet to risk it when I have been doing so well. 

The idea came to me last night as I was trying to get Kyle to go to sleep.  We have a nurse that comes on Monday nights so I know that I would get a good night’s sleep.  Plus, Kyle went to bed early.  I made a deal w/myself that if I was able to get into bed before 9:00 that I would let myself get up at 4:00 and workout.  What did the clock read????  8:58.

I can definitely tell, though, that I’m less coordinated in the morning.  Not that I look like I belong in a nightclub when I do TJ in the afternoon, but I felt like a beached whale trying to do some of the ab-shakin’ moves.  Oh well, I did them, and that’s what counts.  Got to go hit the showers!

Progress toward workout goal:  53/250

7:00           I’m really struggling right now.  Today I was on cloud nine b/c I wore one of my cute dresses and it looked great.  Two weeks ago it didn’t look right but now it does, and I got a ton of compliments.  Now, for some reason, I’m getting discouraged b/c I realize how much further I have to go.  I would give my right arm right now for a Reese’s Peanut Butter Cup, thank heavens we don’t have any in the house.  I had considered having an apple w/peanut butter but I’m going to try to work my way through it.  I ate a bigger supper than normal due to the fact that I was truly hungrier than normal, maybe that’s b/c I worked out this morning instead of after school.  I normally have a sugar free pudding for an evening snack so I’m going to grab that in a minute, after I read a few of your blogs.  I can do this, I just wish it wasn’t so hard.