It’s all up to me

Water weight sucks.  That has to be what it is b/c TOM is just a few days away.  Fortunately I’m being rational about it b/c otherwise I would be diving head first into about 6 donuts right now.  This morning the scale read 252.5. Oh well, I can’t change how the female body functions.  I know that I worked out every day and I know that other than a few minor slip-ups that I ate healthy foods of an appropriate portion size.  Man, I’m amazed that I’m so rational.  Don’t worry, I’m sure that sometime today I’ll flip out.

Today is usually the day where I’m a bit more lax on my food but I’m going to reign it in a bit since we’re leaving for vacation on Wednesday.  My “splurge” is going to be corn on the cob.  Normally I don’t eat it but my FIL just dropped off a dozen ears.  To compensate we’re going to bake chicken and I’ll add veggies to the meal.  Then after supper I’ll share a peanut buster parfait w/my son.  I may or may not get in a workout today, it all depends on if the baby takes a nap at the right time. I allow myself a day off on Sundays if I need it but I hope I can squeeze one in today.  Hopefully I’ll have time later to check in on all of you and see how you’re doing.

I tried to add to my previous post from earlier today but for some reason it kept timing out so I’ll just make a new one.  A lot has happened today already.  But most importantly, I’m on plan for food and got in a workout (yoga/pilates).  And, the crazy microwave lady called back.  (See previous post if you want the whole story).  They’re figuring out how to install the microwave and keep calling w/questions.  We sent all of the booklets w/them (they claim we didn’t) and according to the website there are supposed to be extra brackets.  If there were, we never had them, and it stayed attached to the cabinets for 18 months.  We’re honestly to the point if we see her phone number on caller ID again we’re just going to let it go to voicemail.  Thank heavens for technology.  And we cashed the check this  morning in case she keeps causing problems.

Progress toward workout goal:  26/250

Ooh, one great thing.  My older son spent the night w/the grandparents and before they came home they stopped at the farmer’s market.  He walked in the door w/a huge bouquet of gerbera daisies.  He didn’t know it but they are my favorite colors.  He always pretends that we’re on “dates” and he was so proud that he “bought” them for me.  My MIL is a fantastic lady, I’m very lucky.

4:00

Crap.  I just ate 10 small, lemon-flavored tootsie rolls.  Not a huge deal, but my weigh-in is tomorrow.  What am I thinking?????  Now that I have confessed I can focus on being back on track.  I’m too superstitious to tempt fate the night before I get on the scale.

Had a situation yesterday where I completely overreacted.  I’ll try to make it brief:

As you know, we’re installing new appliances, which means we have old ones to get rid of.  We placed an ad selling our range, microwave and dishwasher.  Yesterday was the 1st day of the ad, and right away in the morning a woman called wanting to look at the microwave.  It’s an over the range model and it’s honestly less than 2 years old, which I put in the ad.  She and her hubby came, bought it, end of story.  We even carried it to the car for them b/c they were elderly and ended up talking outside for quite some time, she seemed like a nice lady.

About 6 hours later the phone rang, and this was about 5 hours into the dishwasher installation (let’s just say it didn’t go well, AND I’m becoming best friends w/the guys at the hardware store due to all of the errands I’m running for hubby).  Anyway, microwave lady called and asked me if I was sure that the microwave was new.  I said “yes” and she told me that there was rust on it.  Apparently on the metal frame where you attach it to your cupboards there was a spot that looked like rust, but my hubby said that he got varnish on it when he was restaining the cabinets.  She told me that I must be lying b/c it was made in 1994.  What???  We didn’t even live in this house until 2002, and I remember buying the freakin’ thing.  I calmly told her again that I guaranteed that it was new.  She told me that they were going to stop payment on the check (I was leery about taking a check anyway, but figured they were safe b/c they were older).  It finally came down to where I agreed to wait to cash the check until she had a chance to call Sears and get the serial number checked out.  I was irate by that point.  I don’t know why this bothered me so much, I knew it would come out as I said, and I didn’t have the impression that she was trying to screw me, she really thought she was being screwed.  It took about 2 hours for her to call back and she confirmed that it was last year’s model, so it was NEWER than I said.  I didn’t talk to her, my hubby did, but what a frustrating evening.

On a good note, I ate very well last night when we went out to dinner.  I literally told myself before we left, outloud, “I will make healthy choices b/c it is what’s best for my body.”  When we got there my hubby wanted an appetizer and I told him I didn’t want any.  Then I ordered the grilled pork chops and had cottage cheese for a side.  I did eat about 4 bites of my hashbrowns before I gave them to him, they make them exactly like my mom does and nobody makes better hashbrowns that my mom. 

Today the plan is to get in a workout and be extremely careful w/my food choices.  I’m also hoping to get to JC Penney in the morning b/c they have my favorite bras on sale until 1 pm and I desperately need a new black one.  Wouldn’t you think they could make bras where the underwire doesn’t poke out on the side after a while???

I’m starting to wonder if I have multiple personalities.  Yesterday I think I displayed about 10 of them.  The ones I want to comment about are the ones that decide my body image.  How can I feel attractive, strong and confident and then 2 hours later feel like a huge pig?  There was no binging, I got in my workout, but I just felt like I’m treading water instead of making progress.  I know that I’m making progress, I guess I’m just frustrated b/c it’s going so slowly. 

Really, though, it’s not a mystery as to why I was feeling this way.  I went shopping and got upset b/c the shorts I bought were size 22.  When I started this process in December I was a 24.  Granted, I didn’t get serious until a couple of months ago, and if I’m being honest I was barely squeezing into those 24’s so I was probably a 26 and maybe even a 28, but for some reason I have it in my head that I was a 24 which means to me that I have only lost 1 pant size.  It didn’t even matter to me that I tried on a size 16 dress and it kind of fit, I just keep focusing on those size 22 shorts in the bag.

But I’m over it now.  I got in a tough workout this morning and we’re gearing up to install the dishwasher.  We put in the range/microwave yesterday, sold the microwave already this morning and we have some people coming to look at the range later today.  It will be so great if we can sell everything before we go on vacation, it can just be free spending money!!

I “previewed” the scale this morning and wasn’t surprised to see 252.  I went nuts on the M&M’s last weekend and ate steak as well as a huge ice cream cone.  Plus, I’m PMSing, so I’m sure some of it is water weight.  Keeping all that in mind, it’s close enough to 250 to keep me focused over the weekend b/c I desperately want to be at 250 or lower on Sunday.  I need to stay focused b/c hubby and I are going out to dinner tonight.  I chose a place that has great grilled food and places a relish tray on the table when you get there so I can eat healthfully.  Tomorrow I will avoid sodium as much as possible and make sure I get in my H20 so that I don’t retain any more water to set myself up for a good weigh-in on Sunday.

Progress toward workout goal:  25/250 (yay, 10% of the way there, 11 months to go)