It’s all up to me

I got back on the workout wagon after basically 1 1/2 weeks away and I am one hurtin’ unit.  It’s like after any really bad hangover, you vow to never do it again.  Well, right now I vow to never take that long away from working out and eating healthy again.  I did my favorite TJ workout and even though it generally makes me sweat, I have fun while I’m doing it.  Today, I felt sluggish and confused by the routines.  I even skipped 2 of the less-intense parts just b/c I wasn’t into doing them.  I still worked out for 35-40 minutes so I feel ok about it, but it’s amazing how quickly your fitness level can drop.

Today is the last day of summer vacation but I suppose I’m ready to go back.  What choice do I have, right???  This morning I see my doctor about my foot, I’m hoping he’ll say I can start using the treadclimber.  Then I have to cut the grass and then I’m going to the pool by myself.  My hubby is taking our older son fishing so he won’t even notice that I’m gone.

I’m also a bit nervous b/c last year on the last day of summer vacation is the day that our younger son had his big seizure and nearly died.  He was in the PICU for 5 days and on life support for a while.  Logically, I know that he won’t have another life-threatening episode today just b/c it’s the last day of summer break, but emotionally I’m a wreck.  My hubby and I had a fight yesterday and I think that the emotions leading up to today had something to do with it.  We talked through everything, and it was a talk that we needed to have anyway, but yesterday was miserable.  On top of it, I stupidly enjoyed the “last day before the diet” binge.  On the way to pick up ice cream at this gourmet place that we love, I stopped at a gas station and picked up 2 Little Debbies and slammed those down before I got home.  And gee, then I wondered why I had such a huge headache all night?

Progress toward workout goal:  31/250