Having trouble restarting
I’m really struggling to hop back on the wagon after my problems earlier in the week. When I got home yesterday I was still very hot and I had a headache so I decided not to workout. Then I raided the cabinets and ate too much of everything. No surprise this morning when I got on the scale and it read 265, I was at 263 last week.
I think part of my problem is that I’m thinking I’ll be able to make a ton of progress this summer so I’m backing off right now. I can’t remember if I wrote about this but the program that’s going to send a nurse to take care of my son will continue throughout the summer so I will have daycare for him from 7-4:30 every day, even when I’m off in the summer. I’m going to feel weird having someone else take care of my child when I’m right there so I’m planning to keep myself busy with projects and working out. We’re still going to take my older son to daycare 2 days a week so he can play with his friends and he always goes to grandma’s on Friday so I will have 3 days a week completely to myself. Even when our older son is around I will still be able to workout quite a bit because he’s old enough that he can play in the basement while I’m on the treadmill or working out another way.
I need to get my head screwed back on straight because it’s stupid to slack off these last 6 weeks before the end of the school year. I now have 6 weeks to lose 15 pounds to meet my goal, a little more of a challenge. Maybe I need the extra challenge to motivate me. I’m going to do the best I can to make decent choices through the weekend. I know myself well enough to avoid saying I’m going to start over RIGHT NOW because when I go off plan even a tiny bit I will throw in the towel and eat everything in sight. Instead, I’m going to make the best choice I can and refocus on Monday. This actually should reduce the damage. I’m going to make sure that I post tomorrow, though, to keep me from straying too far off the path. Hope everyone else is having a more successful weekend than I am.