Don’t break your arm…
…patting yourself on the back. It comes back to bite you in the butt. I was so proud of myself and how I got through Monday and then yesterday got me. All of my greatest challenges were rolled into one: my hubby had night class so I had the perfect opportunity to engage in secret eating, I wasn’t able to workout and I had a craving for mixed nuts. I tried all of the tricks that usually work. First, I chewed gum. Then I tried a couple of healthy alternatives and then when about an hour passed and I still wanted the nuts I told myself to eat some and then get over it. By then, though, I was pissed at myself for eating the other snacks when I knew that I wanted the nuts so I dove in head first. Even the arrival of my “Fitness” magazine didn’t stop the flood. When I saw it in the mailbox after having this craving I saw it as divine intervention, but there I was, eating handfuls of mixed nuts while reading the magazine. Nice.
One small victory is that I reduced my supper. Honestly, I would have skipped supper but I didn’t want to show my older son that it was ok to snack all afternoon and then skip supper, so I had about 2/3 of a pork chop and a tomato. But then after he went to bed I found some of those candy orange slices in the cupboard. I don’t even LIKE those candies but I ate them.
What is wrong with me? I realize today is a new day but I almost wonder if that mentality is what’s getting me into trouble because I can always start again. But the alternative, giving up, isn’t good either. Then I think about all of the difficult things I have accomplished and wonder why I can’t solve this problem. I desperately want to be healthy and thin but obviously the pleasure I’m getting from eating is greater than the strength and hard work it will take to accomplish my goal.
And I don’t want anyone to think my nut-binge last night was uncontrolled. Every bite I put in my mouth was 100% my choice. I would tell myself that this wasn’t a good choice and then pop them in.
Slow and steady wins the race, right????
Thanks for the blog comment. We all have those days, but it’s what you do when you start the next day. At least it wasn’t a whole day of terrible choices it was just a few. I will be praying for you as you fight with the temptations.