Guilt
I really need to get to the bottom of this guilt thing. Last night the baby woke up at about 1 or 2. It was my hubby’s turn to get up with him and looking back the last 3 times he has gotten up in the night it was my night to get up with him. I got up with my hubby, checked to see that the baby was ok, got a bottle ready for him and then felt incredibly guilty for going back to bed. Why? When it’s my turn to get up in the night my hubby doesn’t even stir when I get out of bed. I change the diaper, get the bottle, etc. all by myself. And it’s not my hubby making me feel guilty. I was incredibly lucky to marry a man who truly carries his weight around the house and with the kids. He does the cooking, shopping, cleaning and has the majority of the responsibility for our older son since our younger son’s disability consumes most of my time. The only thing he does do is act like a total grouch when he doesn’t get enough sleep but don’t we all?
So here’s the problem with the guilt today. I am home today with the kids because school was cancelled due to snow. I have called our sitter (my sister-in-law) to let her know I’m going to bring the kids down later so I can workout and get a few things done around the house but she’s not answering the phone. This happened one other time this year when we had a snowday, she just thinks she doesn’t have to work. It’s a complicated situation. But back to the guilt. If I can’t get ahold of her I won’t be able to workout until hubby gets home. Knowing he’s exhausted and had school all day I will feel like a slug asking him to watch the kids so I can workout. On top of his other things today he was outside plowing the driveway and sidewalk.
So I need to solve this problem. I am going to call my sister-in-law quite frequently if she doesn’t call me back to make sure that she earns her money for today. Gee, can you tell I’m bitter about this???? If for some reason I can’t I AM going to stick to my eating plan for today. I may not get in exercise but I can eat properly.
Good luck with contacting your sister. One workout will not ruin your success - I promise
I think the guilt thing is in our genetic make-up. I don’t know what it is - maybe the male brain just compartmentalizes better than we do? I believe my DH cares just as much as I do, he just doesn’t feel the *duty* as much. Mine was gone all day Saturday helping a friend. On Sunday I escaped for an hour to take a bath and felt bad about it. Such is life, I guess.
Maybe if you can’t get in touch with your SIL, you can just “drop by” with the kids and say that you thought her phone might be out with all the snow….hard to say “no” when you’re standing right there with them.