A Life Less Overweight

When I was a kid, my eating was very tightly restricted. I wasn’t allowed to eat sweets very often, and when I did, I was made to feel a little guilty about it. What my parents began as trying to watch my weight, turned into some pretty strong feelings for me around food. Therefore, when I was a kid I would walk to the corner store and buy a package of cupcakes. Knowing (or thinking) that I would get in trouble for eating them, I would go hide downstairs in the bathroom and eat them. Kind of like the whole, you’re an alcoholic if you drink alone thing. I guess it was the same idea.

So tonight, before the biggest loser game starts at school this week, I am going to have some cupcake therapy. My husband bought a 2 pack of hostess cupcakes and a 2 pack of twinkies, and we are going to share them. Just seeing that package brought me back to that basement bathroom, and the guilt washing back. But, this time, it’s going to be a positive experience, so that I can purge myself of these weird feelings around food.