A Life Less Overweight

Next week is the end of school. Last year at this time was when I started SBD and it helped me lose the 15 pounds I lost over the summer. I keep telling myself (and everyone else for that matter) that on Thursday of this coming week, I begin again. And I don’t doubt that I will. But until then, the word judicious hasn’t been in my vocabulary. I am going out of my way to eat things I wouldn’t eat- cookies, breads, ice cream- so I can get in a “last hurrah” before Thursday. And on top of it all I haven’t exercised since my 5k two weeks ago. I know that I have some events coming up at the beginning of the week that are end of the year parties, and will have lots of food and drinking. I guess I figure a few more days to enjoy it, then get back to where I was with healthful eating. But, the one thing I am going to change before then is the exercise. I will be returning to the gym on Monday, I don’t see the need to wait until Thursday. I am ashamed that I have fallen this far off the wagon, and that I let it go this far. I think once I start exercising again, I will be less likely to want the crappy foods.

It will also help that I won’t be hanging around my new friend from school as much. She is taller than me and weighs less because she is taller but she is normal weight. However, she eats pretty much whatever she wants and all the time, but she also runs a lot too. Hanging around her I have given myself permission to eat what she eats- “oh, she’s eating one I can have one too”. Except she exercises fat ass. I just need to learn to do what I need to do for myself, and not allow other’s eating habits to give me the green light to do the same.