Feeling defeated
I do NOT feel good today about myself, going to the gym, any of it. I am so torn between actually wanting to go to the gym, but at the same time, really not wanting to go at all. I feel blah, and defeated, and fat, and totally like crying. I don’t usually feel this way, and this is unusual, which makes me feel even worse. It’s TOM so maybe that’s it? I don’t know I just feel blech.
I’ve made a decision to leave immediately at 4 tomorrow and go straight to the gym, change there, and get moving. I won’t feel better until I do. I know that will help this funk I’m in today.