Save me from myself
Ok, I guess there are some women out there who do have trouble finding shoes. There goes that theory…
So I have been in an eating vortex of hell. I have been eating pretty much everything I see with no regard to portions or calories, and completely disregarding all of my SBD ways. On top of that, I bruised my ankle so badly I can’t put on sneakers because they squeeze the bruised spot so badly it really hurts to walk. I have totally hated myself this week, and over the last two, have gained 5 pounds.
This week is my school vacation, so I am going to try to refocus myself, pull it back together, wrap my ankle, and get my fat self to the gym. My belly has definitely filled back in a little. That needs to end. I just don’t know where I lost myself and my good habits. I am so afraid I’m going to gain it all back.
On biggest loser the other night, they talked about how people who don’t deal with the underlying issues of why they overeat will gain the weight back. I know I’ve got a few minor issues, but nothing I can identify as “causing me to eat”. I just like to eat, unfortunately. I don’t think I have a reason. At least not one that I can think of.
Hey girl, I just had to comment because I sooooo know just how you feel!!! It’s like one minute I can plan to be good and just eat the healthy stuff I’ve planned out, and then I walk into the kitchen and BAM! I just start eating crap!!! It feels like there is someone (or something) inside controlling me! I call it “the beast”
but yeah, I sure do understand what you’re going through. It’s definitely a fight, but each day is a new beginning! Hang in there girl!!!
~hugs~
hey there,
i’ve been in this eating vortex, as you call it too. i’ve had an eating problem for years, but for some reason this past month i’ve actually been gaining very quickly. usually i’m around 145, but i’ve been inching towards 150 within the time span of a month.
my issue is basically not knowing how to deal with stress and anxiety.
anyway, if you like biggest loser, i wrote this post on a commitment contract where you can put up a sum of money and if you don’t fulfill your contract (like lose 2lbs in a month), that money goes to someone else. interesting huh?
-pam
http://3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/pambeasley/
Maybe there was something early on that started it, but I feel like you. I love the taste of food. I like to cook, and I like good food. Although sometimes it was easier to buy (and eat) bad food. Focusing on making tasty and healthy food helps a little.