Inspiration
Interestingly enough, my weight is actually 170, not 175. Must have been because of the TOM, but I still feel like I’ve gained, even if the scale doesn’t say so. So far, so good food wise. I have made a few changes that will help me be better equipped to handle staying on SBD during the school year. The gym is going to be the tough part, but I’m just going to have to suck it up.
Anyway, last night my husband and I watched the first episode of the Biggest Loser, couples edition. Wow, it was really eye-opening. We’ve never watched the show before, but it was amazing to see some of the weigh-ins. We were talking about how easy it is to just get lazy and find yourself at a weight that you can’t believe. Many of those people didn’t know how much they weighed. I remember being that way too. You avoid it because it’s just too much to bear. But it was truly inspirational watching those people begin to make positive changes to improve their quality of life. I can’t wait to see how some of them turn out. I hate how they make the women stand there in bras and spandex though. That must be so awful and humiliating, and its all on TV!! But, I guess they knew what they were in for. I would never be on that show for that one reason- no one in the world deserves the horror of seeing my fat ass and belly in spandex, especially in it’s blinding white glory. Shit, I can’t look at myself in the mirror naked without wanting to throw up, but let’s get up on a massive(!) scale, in front of millions of people, many of them no doubtedly making fun of me, and be in the most unattractive clothing ever made. That’s a way to catch a break! But seriously, it did make me realize that fat is extremely unattractive.
As I’ve continued on this journey through the last six months, I have really begun to realize that truly the things worth doing in life are not easy. They take hard work, dedication, support, and lots of screw-ups. I guess life just isn’t supposed to be easy. If we can accept that, we already make it better.