A self-examination
No, no not a breast self-exam, although I should be a lot better about doing those more consistently. Sometimes I wonder: is there anybody out there who does ALL the things they are supposed to do- eat well, exercise, take vitamins, do breast self checks, pay the bills on time, have a perfectly clean house, drink 64 oz of water daily, change their oil on time, etc. Wow, that sounds really OCD, no wonder people with compulsive disorders drive themselves crazy! I feel like there are SO MANY things to be perfect at, that it makes sense that we can’t possibly do them 100% on time, every time. And I guess that kind of proves that we are always bodies in constant self-improvement. I don’t think I’ll ever get it all down, all the time, and maintain some sort of sanity. And I think to some degree I have thought that if I could just remember to do a,b, and c then I’d be exactly where I was supposed to be. But then that would be perfection wouldn’t it? I know that I can’t strive for perfection, but I guess a more realistic goal is to instead be self-improving, and self-forgiving.
On somebody else’s blog I read about how they are seeing a doctor that is making statements like “don’t eat for the future hunger, eat for the present hunger.” Wow, what a concept!!! Something that is so simple, yet I know that I am guilty of eating enough now to be sure I don’t get hungry later. What a terrible habit! Do I really think we are in the dark ages when it was possible that I might not have enough food for the next time I need to eat??? Even with my kitchen needing a desperate trip to the grocery store, I still have more food at hand than our cave ancestors never had. Damn science- we can figure out how to lipo the fat off our asses and put it in our lips, but we can’t find a way to control our “food libidos.” That’s really what it is. I would bet some of our appetites for food rival some men’s appetites for sex! Boy if we could get the two sexes “libidos” to align, we’d be a very populated, very skinny planet.