I like food
It’s been a crazy week already and it’s only Weds. There has been absolutely something every night this week and will continue into the weekend. I have realized that to some degree I am a stress eater. I didn’t think I was, but I am. But big deal that I know that, because even as I am thinking “I only want to eat because I’m stressed” I am gulping down something else. I weighed in on Monday to find I gained back 4-5 lbs of what I lost. I’m hoping it’s water weight, but that is still way too much for me to be comfortable with. Things still fit loosely, but it was a wake up call. I’ve been cheating a lot and I should have known it was going to catch up with me. No, I did know, but the pizza tasted too damn good to say no. So I am battling back, once again. I am so disappointed and frustrated with myself. I knew that things would be a lot harder when school started. But I feel like my “bad” times are the weekend. This wasn’t an issue during the summer, why is it now? Probably because I feel like I “deserve” it after a long week at school. I have to change this mindset. J. loves going out to eat (so do I) on Friday nights, and it certainly is nice to not have to cook. But my mindful eating goes by the wayside, and no matter how healthy a dish I choose I a) over eat it and b) can only imagine what it’s cooked with and in that makes it a lot less healthy than it appears to be. I don’t want to stop eating out, but I need to make some changes that can result in my being happy with my progress and enjoying life in moderation. I’ve been to the gym once already this week, and hopefully I can get in one tomorrow after the dentist, and then one this weekend if not two. This is the ONLY thing that keeps me from falling totally off the wagon and sometimes I feel like the gym motivation is teetering too. I keep telling myself my motivation is to lose enough before we want to get pregnant, and that isn’t too far away. The time’s a-ticking and if I am not careful, I will explode.
It is frustrating, isn’t it? I was the same way with the Yankees early in the season……
And the weight issues - motivation issues etc are enough to drive me CRAZY! It actually helps to know that I am not alone in this! I completely agree with you that the exercise keeps it from getting really ugly.
Thanks for your response! Hang in there - we will get back on track!
hang in there bebe!!!
Since school started back for me it has been a struggle here too.
You can do this! Just keep your eye on the prize and blog, everyday. It helps keep you on track. When I don’t blog i tend to slip off.
Your awesome, wonderful, and strong! You can do it all!
Ive been having a few rough days myself. I too am an emotional eater, but Im trying to get a grip on it. When you go out, you could always have some sort of grilled chicken salad with lite dressing.
Here’s something that should cheer you up—-the local paper publishes the stats of all the major league players (8) recently graduated from local H.S.s on a reg. basis and David is way in front in ALL areas……..you know, if not for your crush, I’d never be looking at this stuff………….anyway, had to laugh the other day…found out the orchestra trip this year is to Boston to see Keith Lockheart and co. w/ a side trip to see (yep)……. a baseball game…..
Hello! As I was catching up and reading this post it sounds like something on my blog these last few weeks. The school year is taking a beating on me as well. I work with the school district as a parent educator so my schedule is all days and nights just about and it’s my first year. I did okay but then just lost it, I’m still trying to climb back up the hill and get that motivation back. For me it’s all a mind game I play. It helped me to look back at my old posts and my about me section. I’m impressed that you have posted on your blog though, I just went into shut-down mode and barely posted anything. Anyways, great job with going to the gym, we can and will do this!
Sending you big hugs, perk up!