Chugging Along
Well, weighed in today and I am back down to 179, my pre-vacation weight. I am definitely happy about that, though I still feel a little disappointed it isn’t coming off faster. I keep telling myself to be patient and continue on all of my great lifestyle improvements. I know a positive attitude makes all the difference, so that is what I will strive to maintain and hope the rest will come.
One thing that is on my mind. I love the summer, but I dread when friends invite you to go to the pool with them. Even though it could be worse, I just don’t feel comfortable laying around in a bathing suit. When I am around my husband or someone heavier than me it doesn’t phase me at all. But around anyone else, I am always so worried about what they are thinking. I wish I could say I didn’t care what they thought, or that it doesn’t matter, but I find that very difficult to actually believe. So instead, I put the pool situations off so that they just don’t happen. So sad, I know, I am missing out on some great social times. But until I get comfortable enough in a suit, I don’t think I’d enjoy it that much anyways. I’d be constantly thinking about how to cover up!
