Little Victories
Well, although my weight hasn’t changed too much in the last few weeks, I have had some mindset changes. An example: the other night at one of the three baseball games we are attending this week, I hadn’t eaten dinner yet. I saw a woman with a salad and was glad to see there was a choice I could have. J and I searched high and low for the damn salad vendor, nowhere to be found. I figured she must have brought it herself, which I didn’t think you could do (if it was the Red Sox, rather than the PawSox, you definitely can’t bring even water). So, starving, I finally got what I thought was the best choice, sausage with peppers and onions because it had the veggies. Still a really crappy and unhealthy choice, but with what was out there, it’s what I had to work with. So, we’re sitting there, me about three bites into it, when the announcer says “looking for healthy food alternatives? Visit section bla-bla under the stairs”. Well hidden! So, I pass the unfinished sausage to J. and later we got up to find the salad.
Here’s why this is a victory. In the past I would have said, screw it, I’m halfway in, I might as well go for the finish. But I didn’t! I was a little upset I went that far. But J. made a great point. He said he thought what I did was harder than not eating it in the first place. Passing up on finishing something you’ve started is hard and something I would never have done in the past. That’s what I love about him. He didn’t make excuses for me or encourage me to just finish it, he pointed out why I shouldn’t feel so bad about it, and futhermore, why I should actually feel good!
And then, yesterday, I saw a woman I work with that I haven’t seen since school ended- she asked if I had lost weight!! :0)
Lesson: bad food just isn’t worth the guilt and worry. I have a lot of self-control. I am feeling good about my new food attitude.