You ARE the weakest link
So today was the end of week 1 and beginning of week 2 on the challenge I am on. I posted my points and such, and I am definitely the lowest point collector for the week. That sucks. I was determined I was going to rack up so many points for the team. And on top of it all, I weighed in today, and my weight is 181. I started, just about a month ago, at 184. 3 lousy lbs in one month. THAT SUCKS!!!! I am trying so hard, being so strict, and exercising, but I guess I am going to have to try harder dammit. Nothing is going to get the weight off except for that, so I need to just do it! Being accountable to a group does help- I can see how the Weight Watchers meetings are beneficial. However, I don’t think I could talk to people face to face and tell them all my shortcomings and how I feel about my weight and myself. Too personal. At least here it’s anonymous. I don’t mind if someone reads this, because generally, people are supportive, and I don’t have to look them in the eye!
I also got frustrated yesterday when I went to the gym with J. I was so excited I was going to show him (like a little kid) how I could run two miles. Guess how far I ran? No, you need to guess. Ok, geez, give me some credit. 1.25 fucking miles!!! THAT SUCKS!!! I was SOOO pissed, I couldn’t believe it. Figures. So today I am determined to do the following things this week:
1) Kick my own ass in eating and the gym
2) write down what I am eating so I can determine why I am not losing