Waiting..

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First off i have disabled anonymous commenting. I got around 400 spams per week and i could not be bothered reading to see if any were from real people. So nuff is enough. If you want to comment. Log in so i can ban you if you are spamming.

Other than that I am now done with tests..xrays…and stuff..and hopefully the operation will happen sometime this summer. I have as of yet not received a date.

Just wanted to update those who were following me previously.

Love Boof

15th of April - First examination for gastric bypass

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Time is closing in.

Last few months I have been eating anything I wanted.

I have gained a lot of weight, and I am probably around 185kilos again..dunno..havent checked.

But I figured when i am going to eat soup for a year after the operation, I may as well enjoy myself before that.

It has felt extremly good not even thinking about what I eat.

There has been no psycological stress what so ever.

15th of April I will have my first examination/talk with the surgeon.

If it goes as I expect, the operation may be about 2-3 weeks after that.

I plan to write daily blogs about it…to let you people know how it feels like, and what thoughts go through my mind in the new changed body.

Thnx for the support everyone.

Love Boof

The update.

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Yoh guys.

Been a while.

I fell off.

Went to the doctor 22nd of December and signed up for Gastric Bypass operation.

I have given up doing this the hard way.

Lost ALL motivation.

I have spent 32 years TRYING

I have spent 32 years …FAILING

I want to spend my next 32 years….not having to think about it.

I want to spend the next 32 years….not hating myself.

I am tired.

All that remains is to get the physical block in my body that can help me.

All my losses gained.

Sometime this spring.

I hope…

Boof

I WILL DO IT!!!!!!!!

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Sitting on the train home i think about the guys from yesterday.

I am filled with joy on their behalf but at the same time i am filled with motivation that i will succeed as well. It may be slower, but i have lost a few kilos, and there is no reason to ever give up.

I WILL DO IT!!!!!!

Boof on a train wish y’all good walking!!!

Visiting some fellow big people..or not so big anymore…

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As some of you may know, I was in a program to do gastric bypass about 2 years ago. 1 year ago, the preliminary course for this operation ended. Since then I have on occasion met up with the other people who went to get operation.

Some of these people have LOADS of weight. One guy, I did not recognize him at first had lost over 140 pounds. Over 70 kilo since September last year. The ladies there had lost like 25-45+ kilo in about a year too and were looking really good. :D Was really strange to see them like that.
All of them were very happy about having taken the operation.

Me, I turned the offer for operation down, since I only struggle with motivation, and had no other health problems except being obese.

So on the way home, I walked from the hospital, Aker Hospital, down to Oslo City Center.

Here is today’s trip. Click image for big version to open. :)

From: Aker Hospital.
To: Oslo Central Station (Train station, downtown, Oslo)
Distance: 4.93 kilometers / 3.06 miles
KML-file for download: 19-23-26-Aug-2010.kml (save to desktop then open with Google Earth)

That’s all for today! :)

GPS ownz! :P

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I finally got ma new baby.

Samsung Galaxy S

I mainly got this so I could get GPS feature, and so I could have a big screen on my phone to stream videos from the Internet when I am traveling. Something to make time fly by.

The GPS I had some problems with in the beginning, but I found a website that helped me correct the wrongly factory set settings. And voila I was able to use the GPS.

I downloaded a small program for it called “Journey Tracker” which basically registers your GPS coordinates and then saves them. You can add your own markers so you can later make comments on your travels.

Click image below to read more about this application for Android phones:

The whole thing can be saved to a KML-file which you can open in Google Earth to view in any way you want, with the followed path visible. Handy little program. :)

So today I made a recording using the GPS and Journey Tracker so you can see the route I’d like to call “Trip 3″ as it’s the third trip I have started walking of all my trips. I will at later stages post the KML-files and screenshots of the other trips as I re-walk them with the GPS :)

Here is today’s trip. Click image for big version to open. :)

From: Høybråten Train station
To: Løvenstad
Distance: 4.60 kilometers / 2.86 miles
KML-file for download:  16-35-25-Aug-2010.kml (save to desktop then open with Google Earth)

Marker 1: This is the marker right after start, right after I got up the “hill-from-hell”. Dread it every time!

Marker 2: Take a left turn at this crossroad

Marker 3: Lørenskog Train station / Starting point of the same trip, but then without the stretch from Høybråten.

Marker 4: Connection point to one of my other routes. Will show it in another article.

Marker 5: Connection point to alternate route, but I usually do a right turn here to get onto the path following the north side of the freeway.

Marker 6: Connection point to alternate route if I feel like going past the hospital, a few up hills in this route, so I seldom takes it. I take a left here and follow the path along the north side of the freeway.

Marker 7: This is just a marker I set to remind myself to tell u that it’s easy to take the wrong way here…you have to cross a bridge before doing the left turn, if you don’t you will start walking back and uphill if you take the left BEFORE the bridge. :P…so remember…walk over the bridge, then take left.  :)

Marker 8: Should have been near the lake I pass on the left side of the freeway. Pass by an undertaker’s office, and this is also a point that connects with a different route where I continue straight east from Marker 5, instead of taking a right. :)

Marker 9: Here I take a right again, to get towards the freeway again. There is a region-soccer field right nearby here, one made of sand and one made of grass(artificial grass?..dunno)….which leads me to..

Marker 10: Bårlibakken…or as I call it “the devils hill”. It’s looong and not too steep…but it really hits u mentally, every bloody time. it’s the “ok-you-can-do-it-this-time-also-you-are-nearly-home”-hill. :P

Marker 11: This is where Bårlibakken ends, and flattens out. There is an overpass over the freeway here, which as you can see I have taken. Alternatively I could continue straight forward, and pass by the nursery home for the elder, and the kindergarten.  You have to appreciate the irony there..:P The Kindergarten next door to the elderly home. Hahahah. :)  - The buildings are built in the same style so it’s like u can tell the kids, now u’r a kid and go here, when u go old you move across the road. zomg! :D

Marker 12: Finish. Home. You can see some ZigZag patterns there, that’s me going to the grocery store to buy me some PepsiMAX on the way home. :)

That concludes for today. :)

OH BTW! - If you ever feel like coming to Norway to test out my routes, gimme a call. :P

Hugz from Boof

Feels like all I do is appologizing.

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So….

A few days ago I saw an advertisement for the web-page http://www.bluebaldur.com/

This made me think a bit, because I have, despite what people may believe had a pretty OK taste in clothes….which I would wear, if I was slim.

This made me think of that I have the shape of an warning triangle, like the once you have in a car and put up just after an accident.

My accident was pretty much life….in a way. It’s been an accident every-time I have eaten unhealthy. It’s been an accident every-time I have not walked. It has of course also been an accident every-time other people have eaten something I could not eat, had cravings for, and ended up eating anyway………

This store, with it’s fancy clothes made me think of what the opposite would be.

The yield sign.

To me the yield sign illustrates that you would have respect for food, exercise, and life, and in addition Yourself.

I don’t respect myself. I hate my body. I am a FAT FAT man with the shape of a warning triangle illustrating how bad it went in the accident. Inside this fat fat warning triangle is a slim, nice looking, sexy, cute, handsome, fit, muscular(this i know is a fact actually)…..yield sign.

If I was slim, I’d yield to my better conscience.

This again made me think about the reasons I have to slim down.

Things I hope to gain.

Being able to go shopping for clothes without feeling that the sales clerks thinks I am a nuisance
Being able to try on clothes in a shop before I buy them without soaking the clothes in sweat.
Being able to buy clothes in ANY shop
Being able to buy clothes I like, rather over clothes that Fit.
Running
Snowboarding
Better sex life. :)  (One that involve more than ONE position..lol!)
Feeling better
Feeling happy
To like myself!
Shower is no longer an exercise.
Good conscience with regards to my funeral and who is gonna carry me.
Easier housecleaning
Not feeling embarrassed when I go out partying.
Not making my other half feel embarrassed walking down the street
Not making myself embarrassed for embarrassing my other half walking down the street
Skiing
Mountain walking
Looking at myself in the mirror…and liking what I see.
Flexing in the mirror.
Not feeling like a problem when I go with friends. (Have to sit in the front seat because…bla..bla.bla..)
Being able to eat a slice of cake at a friend’s house without feeling bad about it.
Having kids
Being able to be a father for my kids
Taking walks with my kids
Having the energy to play with my kids.
Showing up for my kids…without their friends going “You father is so fat he tilts the earth!…
Being a better father for my kids, than my dad was for me (like going camping…)
Having a girl/wife I know loves me, and don’t think she is with some fat blob.
Having a wife/girl who is not ashamed to show me to her friends.
…not to mention her family might think more of me than being a blob.
I want to be able to take a full shave, without worrying about my quadrupled-chin showing.
I want a hairstyle…I mean, currently when i cut my hair, I look like a 5-year old no-matter-what.
Not getting embarrassed when i go to a public bath and getting “the gazes”.
I can sit at a table without collecting “the next meal” in the 2nd food tray….my belly-top.
I can eat at the table without having to assume the “shuffle-over-the-food-plate-edge”-position. :P

What I will miss/wont like.:
Getting a 2-seater on the bus all alone, because I fill 1.5 seat, and no one wants to squeeze in! :)
Not being able to gorge in food.
Easier to tip over in a brawl (no one mess with me now because my size makes them intimidated).
No longer “oh my he is a big one!” first impression when i go to interviews

….I have been trying to come up with things I will miss with being fat…..but that is harder than finding things I will enjoy… XD

Anyone got any other things they will miss when they reach their goal?

So why the hell is it so hard to keep going when I know that the result is very very VERY desirable?…

Is the only solution to burn off my smell and taste buns?. :P

…and then i got cravings for ice-cream…..have..to….RESIST!!! ARRGH!!!….

…1 week to course start. Have managed to keep myself pretty steady, but i did gain 4 kilo compared to when i left the course, but..4 kilo I know is possible to overcome. The goal before Christmas is to get below 160 kilo. Then the goal after that is 150 kilo before next summer.

It’s slow…but I know i can do it. :)


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