Journal for change.

I don’t know what’s been up the past couple of days.  It’s just been unbearable emotionally.  Drab and depressing.  I feel lethargic and tired.  Sunday was a bad day.  I don’t remember why.  I was feeling quite sad and made myself a huge bowl of spaghetti - my comfort food.  :/  I think that was when I first realized that I definitely eat emotionally.   Also, I had intended on running on Sunday, but I felt sick to my stomach (from some MSG in some Asian food from Saturday night) and just couldn’t make it.  This morning, I was so rushed I didn’t have a chance to eat a proper breakfast.  I had to eat a late breakfast, then never got to eat lunch.  But I ate an early dinner with my mom at a mexican restaurant - and of course ate too many chips.  :/  But then mom and I went to quilting class and that was fun.  And then I got home and ate a smallllll sandwich and more chips (baked at least).  Anyways, after several days of dreariness, I’m ready for the up and up.  I’m going to run in the morning, look for more ways to cut fat and sugar out of my diet (no more refined pasta - whole wheat only).  I’m also going to try to start researching ways to do body weight exercises (since I definitely can’t afford a gym membership - and also can’t afford any weight training equipment) so I can work on that on days that I don’t run.

:/  Hope tomorrow is better than today.

Also, weigh in was today.  Still at 248.