I want to be a loser

So I thought I would update my blog.  I need to get back in the habit of writing again.  I miss it and I really go overboard when I don’t have the discipline.  So here I am again. 

I only walked once in the past week.  I worked my first real day last Monday.  Good day.  Felt like I was getting it.  Then I had plans to meet my friend for a walk.  So after work I head over to her house and change.  We drive to a path that is clear on the other side of town from my house, but is only about 10 minutes from her house.  I love this trail.  Right along the lake.  We walked 6 miles.  Felt good.  Good talking too.  We are just getting to know each other and find that we are a lot a like.  Yeah! 

Exercise was not happening this week.  I was working or driving almost the rest of the week.  Or it was hot as an oven out side.   

Eating has been ok, not the best.  My weigh in day was supposed to be last Wednesday, but I didn’t get on the scale.  Wasn’t feeling it.  So I will weigh in next time.

I wanted to do that virtual 5K this weekend, and didn’t.  It just hit me that the race I was going to do is this coming Friday.  Maybe I will go for a run tomorrow night and see how I feel.  If I can do it then I will do that race on Friday. 

I have another busy week with work and 4th of July.  My son is working at a fireworks stand this week, so he will be gone for 4 days.  :(  It is his aunts stand and this will be his first year working there.  I will miss him.  It won’t be the same 4th with out him there. 

Will try and keep eating on track.  That is my goal this week.      

Have not been faithful with my eating.  I need to get back on track.  I was wondering today if had something to do with the fact that I didn’t have good snack foods in the house.  I had run out of snack size packages of carrots.  So I bought some of those today.  Yeah! 

Exercise has been ok.  Wednesday I walked 4 miles.  Friday I walked 5 miles.  Sunday I walked 5 miles.  Tomorrow I am running/walking with a friend.  Don’t know how far yet though.  We will see how the rest of the week goes. 

I started a new job on Saturday.  I worked on my own and I hope I did ok.  But tomorrow is my first day in the office with the people.  It is the perfect job for me.  2 days  a week. 9-1.   I am real excited I won’t be away from home too much.  And I will be able to splurge with my kids.  Although my first paycheck is going to a new pair of Nikes and new walking outfit.   

When I was walking the other day and today I was thinking how thankful I am I don’t have to watch out for bear, snakes, lions or anything wild like that.  Today a little boy on a bike was riding towards me and told me to watch out there was a snake with big teeth on his jaws.  It was really cute.  I told him I would be careful.  He probably had seen a garter snake with his dad, and by the time he reached me it was a boa constrictor.  

Another thing I heard while I was walking on the path the other day was a woman on a cell phone talking really loud and saying how our culture doesn’t take time to get away and have silence in our lives.  As I am walking down the path trying to enjoy the silence and my own thoughts.  I almost said something to her.  Didn’t.   

I can’t believe the weekend came and went.  And soon my life will be one long weekend.  Kids home all the time.  Kids staying up late.  Kids home all the time. Kids sleeping in late.  Kids home all the time.  Oh, September where are you?  I kid.  I am looking forward to this summer.  It will be different this year cause my dd is working and we will have to plan our days around her schedule.  Or I will just drag my ds out and make him ride his bike with me.  I would love to hit some mountain biking trails this summer. 

Eating the past 4 days have not been up to par.  Not even going to print what I have eaten.  My famous saying is “It could be worse”  And it could be.  Now that I think of it, I didn’t really  eat too bad.  I wonder if it felt like more while I was eating because I am not eating as much normally.  Exercise has been pretty good though.  Work out video on Saturday.  Sunday off.  Monday I ran 3 miles and today I walked 4 miles. 

I went to my son’s middle school promotion today.  I can’t believe that I have 2 kids in high school.  It seems surreal.  It will be really weird when they leave that first day of school next year. 

I got up and went and met my friend for a run.  Made it 2 miles.  She was ready to walk.  So we walked a 3/4 mile cool down.  Glad to get out there, but would have liked to run a little bit more.  I will get out Saturday morning. 

Food has been good most of the day.  Cereal and banana for breakfast.  Lunch was with my dad-meat, small potato, roll and carrots.  Dessert was small cheesecake.  Water all day.  Dinner was scrambled eggs.  Then I had some almonds and Ritz crackers. 

I think if I ate like my dad I would be thin as could be.  All of his food is pureed.  He is not the same man he was 2 years ago, or even 10 years ago.  Alzheimer’s sucks!!!!  He looks at me with those big blue eyes and he seems like he wants to say something but he can’t.  He is like a toddler.  I love him so much.  I miss him talking to me.  Sorry, I am babbling.  I tried to add my blog that I had written a couple years ago.  My mom and I drove my dad to AZ to visit his sister and I had kept a blog of the trip. I will try again later.  With my daughters help. 

I woke up today and got on my running clothes and out the door I went.  3.5 miles of running.  Yeah.  Perfect day for a run.  Cloudy, cool and slight breeze.  I was wishing I had more time to do more mileage.  But not today. 

Went home and got ready for the day.  I had to work today.  I threw grapes and yogurt in a bowl and ate on my way to work.   Yummy. 

My dh had called me and told me he was going to go see Indiana Jones.  So on my way home I met him there.  He didn’t know I was coming.  Kind of fun.  I only had a handful of popcorn. 

I ate lunch when I got home.  Ham sandwich and carrots.  Dinner was a home made hamburger and small bowl of baked beans.  Dessert is going to be a popsicle.

I had an attainable goal presented to me today.  About a month ago my dd and I cleaned out her drawers.  She didn’t want a really cute pair of capris.  She told me to put them in my closet and work towards them.  So I put them in my closet and didn’t think about them again until this morning.  I tried them on.  I actually got them over my hips.  They were very tight and I couldn’t zip them or button.  But I got them over my hips.  Isn’t that half the battle.  So I have made those my goal pants.  I know I can fit into them one day.  The one thing that surprised me was the size.  7/8.  That made my day, that I almost fit in them. 

Tomorrow I am running with a friend.  We haven’t talked in a while so it will be good.  Then I am having lunch with my dad.  He is in an Alz. facility and they are having their Fathers day lunch tomorrow.  It will be nice.  My mom will be there too. 

Today was weigh in day for me.  Stepped on the scale 155.  Stepped off, stepped on 155.  Oh, my.  Down 1.5 pounds from 2 weeks ago.  Finished cleaning the house and pulled the scale out again.  Stepped on 154, stepped off, stepped on 154.  I will keep that one.  Sold to the lowest bidder.  So, if my calculations are right, I have lost 4.5 pounds in 4 weeks.  What?!?  Exercise and watching out how much I eat works?!?  Who would have thought.  :)  I can’t wait till I can weigh in again.  A couple days ago I actually pulled out my scale at home and got on nekkid.  145.    Weird how much of a difference it is.  

A temptation has moved into the area.  Sonic.  Thankfully it isn’t on my side of town.  Otherwise there would be a spot with my name on it in the parking lot.  I did look up the nutritional value on the food and that helped me lose a bit of the craving.  I do want to take the kids over there one night for dinner.  I love the drinks there. 

No exercise today.  Besides cleaning the house.  I am still feeling the effects from the lower body workout I did the other day.  Goal is to run 3-4 miles Thursday morning before I go to work.  

Tomorrow is weigh in.  I hope I do ok.  I have been doing so good with my eating and my exercise. 

Yesterday I did the lower body work out of Jackie Warners.  I am so feeling it today.  My butt is so sore.  I will do this one again for sure.

Today I ran 2 miles.  I tried a new path.  Unfortunately I didn’t know that it ended at 1 mile.  So I did a quick out and back cause once I turn to the car that is it.  I am done. 

It is supposed to get nicer so hope to get out and do some more running this week. 

That is the book I always think of when I go for a run on the path.  The rabbits cross in front of me.  They sit there and watch me run by.  I can see their homes in the brush.  I love it.

Tonight I went for a quick 2 mile run.  And I mean quick.  I think that is the fastest I have ever ran.  Well, since high school.  But it was out of fear that I ran so fast.  Something about dusk and a dark path make me run faster.  I ended up doing 2 miles in 20 minutes.  Which is fast for me.  I didn’t want to be out on that path when it got dark. 

Eating was good today.  Cereal for breakfast, coffee at church. Lunch was ham sandwich and carrots.  Dinner was scrambled eggs and grapes.  Snack is going to be an ice cream sandwich.  Yummy. 

I went to a graduation party today and it was tempting but I stayed away from the food table.  The only thing that really tempted me was carrot cake. 

Yes, it makes everything green.  And I am sure there are other things rain is good for.  But not for running.  Some people like to run in the rain, but I don’t.  I was supposed to walk the Rose Festival Parade route with a couple of my friends this morning but I backed out last night.  I didn’t want to walk and then sit and watch the parade wet.  Not fun for me. 

Eating has been good.  I am staying pretty good.  Not over indulging and not depriving myself. 

I have done one of Jackie Warners workouts every night.  I really feel those working.  My daughter has to work today and my goal is to ride to work with her and then run home.  It is 4 miles.  I will run 3 of those.  I will try for more.  But not going to push it.  I will update later how I did. 

I really want the Wii fit.  I wonder if anyone has this and how they like it and if they really use it. 

UPDATE:  I drove to work with my daughter.  And off I went.  I walked .38 of a mile. Took off running.  I almost ran the whole way home.  There is a really big hill and I made it 3/4 of the way up before I had to walk.  I fast walked though.  When I got to the top of the hill I took of running again.  I ended up running 3.68 miles.  That is the most I have done in one session. I think it helped not having the mileage markers.  Then cool down walked .21 mile.  I will have to do that route again.  I know the mileage looks funny, but I looked it up on a website where you can map your route.  I need to work on my walking though.  I am doing Portland to Coast in a few months and my total mileage is 18 miles.  I know I can do it.  I have done it 8 times.   I need to start training for that. 

I ran today.  3 miles.  Whoo Hoo!!  Little secret.  I am starting to like running. 

 Eating was ok. 

Breakfast-2 eggs, 2 dry toast, coffee, water

Lunch-Old spaghetti factory-1/2 an order spinach/cheese ravioli, salad, water

Snack-ice cream sandwich-yummy 

Dinner-Steak and baked potato

Snack will be popsicle.

Plan on doing a Jackie Warner workout as soon as I am done doing this.  My abs are killing me from the video I did last night.  So tonight will be upper body.