I want to be a loser

Today was a good day, bad day.  I ate good.  No toe procedure is needed.  Garage sale went good.  No run though. 

The foot doctor told me I needed to try and find a different shoe.  So I will head to a shoe store this weekend and get fitted.  I am going to go to one of those stores that watch you run and then fit you on what they think will work best. 

Cereal for breakfast.  Peanut butter and jelly sandwich and carrots for lunch.  Yogurt for a snack.  Then I had about 15 almonds while I was heating up my dinner.  I went with a WW dinner and half an apple.  I will make stroganoff tomorrow night.  No one was going to be home to eat a home made meal.  Snack will be a popsicle.  I didn’t eat one last night. 

I was all excited to go for my run.  Got dressed. Got my rain jacket on.  It was sprinkling and I figured I could handle a little rain.  Too bad the path I run on can’t handle the rain.  It was flooded.  I am going to have to find a new path. 

I am sore from lifting weights last night.  That is good, right? 

Another day down. 

Is that the truth?  I keep telling myself don’t go back.  It is so easy to tell myself-have that slice of pizza, what difference will it make.  Have a bowl of ice cream, what difference will it make.  But it will make a difference.  It will put me back at day one.  I don’t want a day one again.  I want a day 30, day 45, but right now I want day 4.  And tomorrow I will want day 5.   One day at a time, but no more day ones.  That is my new motto.

I didn’t go for my run today.  Timing and weather were not in my favor today.  But I did lift weights, worked out on my stair stepper for 10 minutes, worked on abs and of course my inner thighs.   I plan my work outs around the TV. I am hoping that will change one day.  Today it was Malcolm in the Middle.  That show makes me laugh.  I do the stepper while watching the show and the other stuff during commercials.   I don’t feel the pressure to HAVE to do so many minutes on the stepper that way.  And it gets it done, right?

Diet consisted of cereal for breakfast, peanut butter and jelly sandwich and carrots for lunch and dinner was 1/2 caesar salad from Costco.   I am going to have a popsicle for dessert.  I need to go shopping tomorrow so I can buy more popsicles. 

Tomorrow I am working at a garage sale and I am worried about my diet.  I will be there from 8-3.  I will have cereal before I go.  Maybe I will take a yogurt and carrots for a snack.  Pack a sandwich?  I will play it by ear.  Dinner will be beef stroganoff cause I have some beef in the fridge and I can make that real quick and easy.  Small portions. 

I am also planning on going for a run tomorrow night.  It will be my last one for a while.  I might be having a procedure on my toes.  I have done a race called Portland to Coast for 8 years and after each race I would lose a toenail or two.  About 6 years ago I was having problems with my big toe so I went to the doctor and he suggested I have my toe “clipped”.  Where they take the sides of the toenails off so it doesn’t become ingrown.  Well, 2 years later I had to have the other big toe done.  Now it is a couple years later and I need to have the next two toes done.  They just keep giving me problems.  And with me doing a big race in August I need to get it done now.   Bad toes run in my family.  Thanks dad.  :)   I find out Thursday if I have the procedure on Friday.