I want to be a loser

I am really wondering if this is working for me anymore. Wondering if I should keep writing or just ditch it. So I will write today and decide later.

This has been a crazy past couple of weeks. The snow. My family. Scheduling. New shoes.
On the 18th my dad passed away. Knew it was coming, but still hard to take in sometimes. The service is this weekend. Family get together on Friday night and then the service on Saturday. Lots of food. He will be missed, but glad he is no more pain, and able to be in Heaven riding his motorcycle.

Snow has been a pain in the butt. Not only snow, but it is so cold. I have been out running and walking with friends.

I did finally buy new shoes. Went to the Nike outlet and found shoes on the back wall. Which means that they were returned by someone who didn’t like them. $30 so not too bad of a waste if they don’t work. Haven’t had a chance to run in them yet, since it has been so cold. Hopefully tomorrow afternoon.

Walked 5.5 miles in the rain. Just a sprinkle.

Food is all about the comfort this week. Homemade mac and cheese for dinner tonight. Small portion. Hahahaha.

Lots of water.

I ran again today. In this weather it is “do it while you can”. I set my itouch for a 5K and took off. It told me when I had done a 1K, 2K and then half way. Then it says you have 2K left, 1K left, 400 meters, 300 meters, 200 meters, 100 meters, you are done. I love my new toy.
So, by the time I was done I had averaged sub 10 minute miles. Best ever. Paying for it now since I am sore. But I feel I need to pick up my pace if I am going to drop any weight.
Don’t know when I will get out there again. Busy schedule and rain in the forecast. Maybe Wednesday or Thursday.
Might try and find an ab workout on demand. I always feel those.

I knew that if I didn’t get out there I wouldn’t this week. So I headed out and did 2.85 miles by the notes on my itouch. I really like my new toy. Makes me want to get out there and keep adding up my mileage.

It is snowing right now, so I don’t know when I will get out again. My goal was Monday morning, but might have to wait until Tuesday. Never know what is going to happen when I get up in the morning. So frustrating.

I did it. It was fun. Met my sister in law and brother and we took Max to downtown Portland. Along with all the party people. Max smelled like alcohol so bad. Could almost get drunk off the fumes. And it was full.
Found the starting line and got in line to get our shirts. My brother had preregistered me earlier in the day which was great. They wouldn’t give me my shirt till after the race since I had just registered that day. Which is fine since I didn’t want to carry my shirt.
About 11:45 we started lining up. And at midnight we took off. My SIL and I ran the whole way together. I had my new Nike+ in my shoe and used it. It was pretty accurate and I look forward to using in again.
Final time was 32:36, or something like that.

Yesterday I returned Christmas gifts. I had gotten 3 ice cream makers so I returned 2 of them. Walking around Target thinking about what I could get I saw the Nike+ attachment for my itouch and bought it. And struggled with the purchase the whole way home. Will it work? What if I bought the wrong thing? When I got home I did some more research and realized I needed a certain pair of shoes to put the sensor in. Dang, I don’t have those. So, I played around with the thought of cutting open the tongue of my shoes and putting it in that. But, while I was doing that I noticed that my shoes are the ones that the sensor goes in. COOL!!!! And they are one of my favorite pair of running shoes. So now I know that I can wear that sensor with no problems.

Sore today, so will only play the Wii.

That is how long it has been since I have signed on and posted anything. Not that I have anything to post. I have been eating pretty bad and I haven’t really exercised.
But that is all changing. Starting at Midnight New Years eve I am ringing in the new year by running a 5K. Last weekend I had my family at my house for Christmas and I overheard my brothers and my SIL talking about doing the First Run downtown Portland. My original plans for new years eve were to take a hot shower, put on my PJ’s and drink a bottle of wine. Maybe buy some shrimp and caramel ice cream and call it a night. So instead I am meeting my family for a run.
I am on my own this year for the first time in 18 years. Maybe 20. My husband and son are in Sunriver which has been tradition for the past 18 years. I broke the mold this year. I wasn’t into it this year. Crowded. Snow. I have had my share of snow this past 2 weeks and ready for clear pavement. So, my daughter and I stayed home. Plus she had to work and since I barely worked last week cause of the snow I am working this week.
I had a great Christmas. Wii fit was one of my gifts. I have gotten on it everyday to weigh and it varies in weight and don’t know how accurate it is. It fluctuates up to 4 pounds between days. And I am not standing naked on it, since it is in the family room.
My SIL have made a pact to lose weight together. And we gave ourselves 9 weeks to lose 11 pounds. We are both at the same starting weight, almost. And want to lose the same amount. Why 9 weeks? Because I have the best mother in the world taking me, my sister and my SIL to Maui for a week. My sister, she is already skinny, so she didn’t need to join our club. I am so excited to go.
I have San Diego in February, Maui and California in March and Las Vegas in April. I have a great first of the year. After that, I need to buckle down and work. A lot of incentive to lose weight this year.
My other great Christmas present was an itouch. Not the iphone. I LOVE it!! I need to find an application that will work for tracking my mileage. Or I am going to have to buy the Nike+ sensor, it already comes with the application on the itouch, Just have to buy the attachment that I will wear.
Something I downloaded is an application that I put what I eat in and it figures how many calories I have consumed and will keep track if I am eating too much or not enough for losing weight. I am bound and determined to win the competition between my SIL and myself.
Here is my resolution right now. To run 3-4 times a week. 2-4 miles each time. At least until the weather gets better. Then up the mileage. Also, to post here more.

That is what I am thinking. I haven’t ran in a week and half and feeling it. I need to get back out there and run, but the weather is not cooperating. Snow and ice are my running enemy. I just saw that my last post was 11-27. I have ran since then.

Will plan on running next chance I get.

I ran 3 miles on Tuesday. Wednesday I ran 3 miles.
Today was a stressful run. To me there are 2 rules to the path with dogs. Clean up their poop and keep them on a leash. I am so tired of pile jumping. Is it really that hard to clean up after your dog. There are bags available at the start of each side of the path. But really got me today was the no leash dog.
I started my run and not 50 feet in I see a lady on a bike with her dog running loose. She has one of those attachments on her bike so she can leash her dog on the back tire and not get tangled up and in her hand is the leash. She is on the bike. Whatever. I figure they will be riding way ahead of me and no problems. Wrong. She was slow and she went around the corner and I couldn’t see her or her dog. Until her dog came crashing out of the woods and right in front of me. So close I almost tripped over the dog. The lady was clear around the corner and I yelled at her to leash her dog. She didn’t even turn around. I was yelling so she could hear me. So I yelled again “Can you leash your dog?” This was her response: I can, but I am not going to. Can you beleive that? Am I crazy, but if someone asks you to leash your dog when your dog should be leashed to begin with, wouldn’t you? She was going so slow on her bike I actually caught up to her and passed her. There were other dogs on the path and she didn’t care.
Ok, I got it off my chest. I can let it go now.

Plan for Thanksgiving is to run when I get up. I get to sleep in tomorrow. Then head to my SIL for dinner. And try and be somewhat good.

It was raining when I first got up, I went back to bed and by the time I was ready to get up it was not raining. I drove down to the path and it was full of parked cars already. I did my scheduled run of 5.5 miles. My knees were really hurting at mile 5. I am really going to have to look at getting knee wraps or maybe go get fitted for shoes. Now that I am working I feel like I can do that.

I went and saw a friend today and she told me that I need to buy smaller jeans cause mine were falling off. But I think I am in that in between stage where the next size down is to tight and I don’t want to go there. Maybe by Christmas.

I went with my youth group (as a leader, of course.) to a progressive dinner. I had so much fun. And ate good. Homemade chicken noodle soup for appetizer, turkey tortellini for main and nothing for dessert. My exercise was doing 3 Chinese fire drills. I ended up driving my car since everyone couldn’t fit on the bus. I had 3 high schoolers in the car with me and they begged me to do them. At the first one I pulled ahead of one of the buses and we did it. The one boy in my car slipped and fell in front of my car. He was fine and we were laughing so hard. Second one we did we were at the end of a driveway in front of another bus and when I got back in the drivers seat I had an extra passenger. The bus behind me did a fire drill too and this girl had gotten in my car. It was so funny. Third time we took off before all the buses and we had to wait for them at the stop sign. We waited out of the car. It was pouring and when they all pulled up we started running around. Good times. The youth group keeps me young.
I was tired and when I got home last night I crashed. My son stayed at a friends house with the promise he would be home sometime between midnight at 4. I told him to text me when he was on his way home. The friend(an adult) was driving him home. He text me at 4:15, he was on his way home. So I got up and unlocked the door at 4:30. Funny thing is my daughter had to get up for work at 5. I had one kid coming home and one kid leaving. Welcome to the teen years. My son had a good time with his friends. He needed a boys night. He didn’t make the basketball team at his school so he was bummed out this week.

Sunday and Monday I am resting my knee. Might go shoe shopping Tuesday night. I get paid that day.

I will have to grin and bear it. It wasn’t that bad. At least that is what I kept telling myself. I got up this morning planning on doing my run right away but it was pouring out. I decided to just go back to bed. Watched 2 episodes of CSI and then got up and ready for work.
On my way home from work it wasn’t raining, hard. So when I got home I put running clothes on and headed out the door. Whoops, it was pouring again. Got the vacuum out and vacuumed downstairs and looked out the window and the rain had stopped. Ran to my car and took off to my path. Raining. Screw it. If I wait for it to stop I will never run. Did my 2.5 miles and I wasn’t the only one on the path. I passed another lady running towards me and we virtual high fived each other. I told her good job for getting out in this rain.
I was soaked when I was done. And of course it had stopped raining. I had to take my jacket off and put it on the floor in the back seat it was so wet.
Went home and took a hot shower. Put my sweats on. I love Thursdays. Survivor and the Office. Can’t get much better. Oh, yes it can. I made apple crisp for dessert. Yummy.
Friday is a rest day. Saturday 5.5 miles. If weather is permitting. Thankfully no set plans on Saturday so I can run anytime.