My Mantra~ I am a strong powerful Amazon Goddess!

Posted by blasphemie on January 19th, 2011 |Filed Under General |

Exercise:
My Fitness Coach 30 mins (136 calories burned)
Wii fit stuff idk yet lol?
Food tracked-
http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_tracker.asp?id=CAELESTIS&dte=1%2F19%2F2011

Today is going much better then yesterday. I am really beginning to see the difference just in how my attitude can influence so much more and my entire day/life. That is a positive step for me.

Getting things done & exercising makes me feel so much better. It just makes me feel alive. I love this feeling.

Anyways today I was exercising and I started feeling like giving up. I tried thinking of the people on biggest loser because seeing them being bigger then me and working so much harder then me and pushing themselves usually motivates me to power through but I was having none of it today lol

Then all of a sudden I remembered the song Fighter by christina aguilera

“Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter “

But I couldn’t remember any of the words to the song right then lmao.

But it stuck with me FIGHTER. I am a fighter. I am a strong powerful AMAZON Goddess! I pictured myself thin, firm, strong, clad in leather with a sword. Ready to do battle. Nothing in this world would dare stand in my way.

All of a sudden boom it wasn’t too hard. I picked up my pace and powered through it.

And it really made me think, THIS is a battle. A battle for my life, my health, for everything I want and everything I am. I have to fight. Fight against all my self doubt, self hate, insecurities, demons, voices in my head, against laziness, and distractions. Agains the easy way out.

I am not 100% sure mantra is the right word lol But this image of me as the Amazon is burned into my head now. I am a fighter. I won’t give up. Every step, every push will just make me stronger. I can do it. I can do anything!

On another totally unrelated note. I am getting a kitten today! Well in a few hours actually alittle calico girlly who we will call Klhoe to do along with our K names. Our cats- Kami (rip), Kisa, Keeba, Kye.  We actually didn’t start out trying to do all K names it just happened but the DH likes it and says it must be a K name now lol

So a co-worker of his had a stray mommy kitty give birth in her yard lol She has kindof been watching out for them and feeding them. She is going to take in the mom and was finding homes for all the kittens. My DH couldn’t say no and once he told me I couldn’t either lol. I love calico’s I had one when I was alittle girl and my neighbors stole her! (Who steals a little girls kitten really??)

Anyways on the other side I know it is sooo stupid. We already have 3 cats. (& 2 parakeets) and live in an apartment…. I swore up and down no more cats and that in the future no more then 2. No we are back up to 4 (our lovely princess Kami passed away in September taking us down to 3)

We are insane lol

And the DH says I can’t talk about the new kitten on facebook at all because he doesn’t want his family to know because they will think we are crazy(crazier lmao)

Anyways I am getting pizza for dinner. eek. No it is good. The other week I had a binge on pizza and way way over ate. Today I am strong. I will be a good girl. I counted it in my calories.


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