Well, i’m here to report that i just caved in. For some reason i just needed to binge a little today. I wanted creamy foods and a lot of them. So, i want to add up my calories and see if there is any salvaging today.

Fiber1 cereal (160), skim milk (60), homemade tortilla pizza (320), 2 cups of coffee (10) with splenda and cream (20). Then the creamy binge: ambrosia (163), tapioca pudding (90), light cool whip (100) and a strawberry cottage chesse double (130). The little binge alone was 483. Today’s subtotal is 1053.

It’s not my worst binge by any means. I suppose as long as i do some exercise and just have a sandwich for dinner, i ought to be okay. I’m gonna have a few cups of coffee and i may even have a square of chocolate tonight. I have to admit, i am stressed that i let myself go off plan like that. I’m stuck with this image of myself with a stack of goodies and a spoon, bringing them into the living room and checking my email while i open package after package. I didn’t even walk back and forth to the fridge. I knew what i was doing, i just let myself go.

Update:

Well, i did it again. This time i really let go. And i knew it, i just let myself do it. It was liked i missed my old binging lifestyle, i was feeling nostalgic or something stupid and/or psychological.

I had a late meeting tonight, so i made my sandwich for the trip and ate it on the drive. Ham (45) and harvati (90) on low cal bread (70). I thought i was in control because on the way home i was craving everything. I passed Applebees i wanted steak, I passed Buffalo Wild Wings i wanted hot wings, I passed Long Johns and i wanted fish, I passed the Chinese place i wanted seafood rolls. I passed Dairy Queen i wanted a cheeseburger. Basically whatever was on their marquee sounded good to me.  But, i made it home without stopping.

I came in and had my dark chocolate square (63) like i had planned. It wasn’t enough… and so the real binge begins. Let’s see: strawberry cottage cheese double (130), another square of dark chocolate (63) a grilled cheese with american (45) and cheddar cheese (80) on low cal bread (70) with butter (20), an orange (45), a serv of chips (160), and another strwberry cottage cheese double (130). So far, i seem done. Tho i admit i could go for another of those grilled cheeses. But my belly says i am done. The binge alone was 743.

Today’s totals: 2064 calories and 25 min wii fit cardio.