Fat as Mud

I don’t even know where to begin…

I went to St Louis with a couple of girls for the weekend. I did fine at first, but then i just let myself go.

Friday night was pizza, wine, dark chocolate. The next day it was gravy and biscuits for breakfast, a steak & cheese melt with fries for lunch. I thought i was doing fairly good, i didn’t overeat really. Plus, there was a lot of walking on both days. But then, once i dropped the girls off and started on my 1 hour drive home, i was starving and stopped for a double cheeseburger at Steak n Shake, i wasn’t full so i grabbed 3 shrimp & a lobster bites snack box from Long John Silvers. Then, it was like i was out of control, i got home and had truffles & peanuts.

Today i got up thinking i would do my 30 day shred workout and eat a healthy 1200 calories and my weight would go right back down. Nope, the self-sabotager came out. Skipped breakfast, shrimp for lunch, a bag of popcorn while i watched Wall-e with the girls. Then half of a dark chocolate bar. Dinner was grilled shrimp, peas and brown rice, which i did fine with but i went carb crazy on the au gratin potaoes and ate maybe 3 servings. And now i am having my first of several glasses of wine because i am in eff it mode. Hopefully tomorrow i will feel guilty and get back on plan.

So, to recap:

Thursday night i went to the twilight midnight showing and didn’t eat a thing. I kept track and had a low calorie day on Thursday.

Friday i got up and weighed in at 183, my lowest since i started my blog, a loss of 10 pounds in about 3 weeks. I met my friends and went to St louis, stayed on plan all day until i started drinking when i let loose and lost track. Friday i’m guessing i had a mid-calorie day, maybe 1800 or at most, 2000 calories.

Saturday, i ate foods that weren’t so good for me, but i kept my portions low until after i dropped off my friends and i was headed home, when i began a full on binge. Saturday was probably a high calorie day, 2200+.

This morning i weighed in at 186, up 3 lbs in 2 days. I was in the right mind set after that and did fine for the first half of the day, then i slipped back into binge mode, culminating in eating half a box of au gratin potatoes followed by the wine i am drinking at this moment.  I’m guessing that today i am at 1600 calories or so right now, but after a few more glasses of wine, i will reach the 2000 calorie range.

I have sloughed off my exercise challenge since wednesday and am feeling pretty out of control. I’m in an eff it mood tonight but i hope that since i have the week off of school i can get back on track quickly.