I guess I haven’t written since Friday maybe… well there’s a reason for that. I haven’t been feeling well AT ALL for the past 2 days. Well Saturday I was fine except for the fact that I spent about 9 hours in the deadly heat out at my kids’ track meet. I consumed all kinds of horrible things like:

crunch n munch

a big pretzel- sans salty coating

Gatorade

Ocean Spray Cran-Grape juice

Capri Sun

I came home around 7pm and crashed for about an hour because I was soooo exhausted from the heat. Then I got dressed and went to meet my friend at a bar near my house. I didn’t feel like going, but I promised, so I felt obligated. OH, WHY DID I GOOOO? I ended up eating horrible bar food. French fries and fried chicken wings to be exact! I also had Malibu coconut rum and pineapple juice (x3). I haven’t had a drink in months, so why I drank this night beats the hell out of me. I just promise not to do it again. I felt like CRAP all day Sunday! I was completely sluggish and tired. I had a stomach ache too. I couldn’t even eat. Everything I put into my mouth made my stomach cramp up. And on top of it all, I hadn’t been able to have a BM in like 3 days! I was all screwed up! Sunday morning, I got up and took the kids to the pool. I was able to force down a banana for breakfast. Lunch was dried cereal (Quaker oatmeal squares). I also ate a ridiculous amount of popcorn at Target while we were shopping with my grandma. My stomach hurt so bad after that, that I didn’t eat anything else for the rest of the day. What I did was go to bed! As soon as I got home from taking my grandma shopping. It was probably around 7pm when I went to bed for the night.

Sunday’s Weigh-In:

This week: 172

Last week: 173

Monday:

Started my new job. Worked up until lunch time.

B: banana, yogurt (gave me a stomach ache)

S: trail mix (stomach ache)

L: baked chicken (skin removed), broccoli (more stomach ache)

***TMI ALERT***: I was finally able to go to the bathroom, and haven’t been able to stop since. Seems like every 15 mins or so, I’m running back! waaaaaahhhh! I just feel like crying :’(

I don’t know if I’ll be eating anything else today. Everything I eat seems to make my stomach cramp up horribly. I feel bloated and gross. My tummy just keeps gurgling and bubbling.

Oh, and I haven’t worked out since Friday

***UPDATE 6/2/10***

I didn’t get to go to my spin class today I am so upset about it too. Instead, I took my kids to track practice and stayed there with them the entire time. The reason I missed spin is because my husband told me at the VERY LAST MINUTE that he needed me to do something, then once I had already missed the class, he told me never mind.  UGHHH! I’ll bet the scale is going to make me pay for it tomorrow morning. I ate with plans to get in a great spinning workout, and didn’t get a chance to.  So needless to say, I am in a VERY crappy mood right now All I want to do is eat, so as soon as I finish this post, I am going to bed. Here’s what I ate today.

Food Today:

B: PB and 1/2 banana on whole wheat English muffin

S: 1/2 banana

L: tuna salad with a slice of 2% cheese and tomato on a whole grain wrap, apple

Dessert: 100 calorie fudge bar (delicious), 35 calorie freeze pop

D: Cheese Stuffed Rigatoni (FROZEN MEAL!!!! I was cleaning out the freezer and found it. I was pressed for time on dinner so I heated this up, and JUST BARELY made my 9pm cut off.) Small (TINY 1″x2″) square of pizza with the cheese and meat scraped off.

About the pizza. I made a frozen pizza for my kids and couldn’t resist. The only reason I scraped the toppings off is because it was a pepperoni and bacon pizza and as we all know I don’t eat pig. I tried to keep the cheese, but it was impossible not to get the bacon too.

I SHOULD have resisted considering I ate so many carbs today and almost no exercise, but I didn’t. I’m not upset about it. Just not looking forward to the scale tomorrow.

I AM SO MAD I MISSED SPIN CLASS TODAY!!!!

I really haven’t felt much like updating my blog these last few days. I still don’t now, but I need to stay accountable.  I really enjoy reading other people’s blogs more than I like keeping up with mine. Anyway, here’s what I’ve been up to…

Tues- Yesterday I worked out like a MAD person! I did a very intense 2 miles on the treadmill, and 20 minutes on the stair climber!!! yes, 20 whole minutes! I drank a TON of water and probably consumed far less calories than I needed to, but I was trying to lose the weight I gained on Monday. I also went to a 6pm spin class. The class wasn’t extremely intense, but it was a decent workout. here’s what I ate:

Food Today:

B: peanut butter and half a banana on whole wheat English muffin

S: half banana

L: bowl full of grilled veggies

S: 1T peanut butter and one small apple

D: baked fish fillet and steamed green peas

Water: over 100oz

Wed- I woke up this morning, and weighed 2.6 pounds less than yesterday. I know most of it was water weight, if not all. It is also day 2 of TOM. I will be weighing in daily this month because I joined a Everyday Weigh In over on 3fc. (just an excuse to be more obsessive). I really don’t want to lose much more weight too quickly, because I want this to be a slow, continuous process. I don’t wanna lose it all quick, and gain it all back quick. But I’ve made some really good, permanent changes so I’m not too worried. Only thing I am worried about is slacking off on the exercise. That’s always the first to go :(  So far, I’ve had the same breakfast as yesterday, and I’ve not done any exercise. I am itching to get to the gym and make nice with the stair climber, to see if yesterday was a fluke, or if I can really do 20 mins! My knee has been bothering me for almost a week now. It’s fine when I’m working out, but really aches afterward and especially when I sleep. I’m not really sure what I should do about this. It does seem to be getting worse. I will be spinning again today and tomorrow also at 6pm. My goal is to make spinning my second workout of the day. I am only doing this so that I can reach my 163 pounds to qualify for the military. Once I get there, I will possibly slow it down. That’s all for now, I’ll be back later on to update more… (hopefully)

OH!! I took my first measurements on April 25 and again this morning (late) my goal is to take them on the last weigh-in day of each month. I’m making another page up top just to keep track of monthly measurement checks. Check it out!

Today was a helluva day… busy, busy. I nearly skipped dinner AGAIN and certainly came in under calories… AGAIN! I can’t keep letting this happen. I have planned for tomorrow to try and make up for the last 2 days of horror. But in other great news, I got my 3 miles in under 30!!!!!! 29.43!!!! I did MOST of it at 6.0 but a couple times took it up to 6.5 and 7.0. Only thing is I ran the fist half (1.5 miles) at a 0 incline, but the 2nd half I did at a -3 incline which is like running downhill. My next goal is to run it all at 0 incline. Because I feel like I cheated. That’s my NSV for the day. I’ve been busy today doing hair, but at least I’ve made some money. I have a 8am appointment in the morning to do some more hair. So at least I’ll have some money to buy groceries next week! I only had $20 to spend today, so I went and picked up some milk, cheese, tuna, tomatoes, and fruit to get me through the weekend. I’ll probably go do some more shopping on Monday or Tuesday if I can make it that long. Ok, I have had a LONG day and I barely slept a wink last night. I need to get some sleep so I can make my 8am appointment in the morning.

B: Oatmeal with RF peanut butter, brown sugar, raisins, splash of almond milk (8:30a)

L: Tuna melt with tomato slices, and RF shredded cheese (1:00p)

S1: 1 tsp peanuts*(3:00p)

S2: MINI-MINI Mr. Goodbar* (6:00p)

S3: 3 RF Tomato and Mozzarella flavored Pringles* (7:30p)

D: Turkey tenderloin, string cheese (9:30p)

* Would you even call these snacks? They were all within HOURS of each other and did NOTHING to satisfy my hunger!!

I must promise myself that I will NOT make sleeping in a habit! It threw my whole entire day off! I didn’t eat for the first time until almost noon. Then I played around for a while reading blogs. After that, I had a great, mood lifting time trying on all my tops that have been too tight since I bought them last fall. Well, not anymore! They all fit loosely now, some too loose and they look silly. I tried on a couple pairs of “skinny” jeans that I have too and they fit fine with no muffin top. But they fit when I bought them, so I’m actually waiting for them to get too big :)  Then I sat around a little more doing a little more nothing, before I decided to go the the gym at 2:30. I came home around 4 and realized that I hadn’t eaten yet and I had a birthday party to go to at 6! I quickly showered and got ready for the party and on my way out around 5:20, I heated up some rice and ground turkey mixture that I had made for my stuffed peppers a while back and froze. I ate that in the car on the way to pick up my baby girl for the party. The party was at Chuck E Cheese. Since I had already eaten, I had no problem saying no to pizza, cake, and ice cream. I only had a small cup of water and that was fine with me. But here’s the scary part, and the part that has me a little worried- I only ate TWICE today! No snacks, and 2 small meals. I’m hungry now, but it’s 9:45 pm and that’s too late to eat. For some reason, I always get hungry late at night. It never fails. Oh well, I’ll just go to bed early since eating now is not an option and hunger is an uncomfortable feeling that you can’t feel when you’re asleep. I’ll leave you with my food/activity for the day.

Food

B: nothing

L: turkey bacon, egg, cheese wrapped in a whole wheat flat bread

D: stuffed pepper filling (ground turkey, brown rice, corn, salsa, Ro-Tel)

Water: 96+ oz (I stop counting after I finish 3-32oz bottles)

Exercise

3 miles in 31.54 mins (RECORD TIME!!!!)

15 mins stair climber (I have now graduated to level 6 from a level 5)

3 sets of 10 on the inner thigh weight machine

That’s all I did at the gym because I was pressed for time. Or at least that’s the excuse I’m going with.

As bad as I want to lose this weight, I still managed to lose all control with the snacks today. But honestly, as much as I work out, I really don’t think a tiny airplane sized bag of pretzels AND peanuts, a handful of Chex Mix well maybe it was 2 handfuls, part of an apple, and a small handful of trail mix is gonna ruin me for the week. WHO AM I KIDDING??? That’s HORRIBLE! All of this snacking took place AFTER I left St. Louis! I planned and brought my own healthy snacks, but still succumbed to the not so healthy snacks. I didn’t even come close to my water today. I need to kick my butt into gear! I HAVE to get to 170! I NEED to get into the Air Force!!!!

B: 1/2c Egg Beater Omelete with spinach, red and yellow peppers, and onion; 1c canteloupe

S: (post workout) 1/2c canteloupe

L: Same as yesterday- Chicken stir fry with whole wheat noodles

S: Honey Toasted Peanuts; sauteed peppers, zucchini, onion (I cooked and packed this for the trip)

S: (airplane ride) mini pretzels, salted peanuts, couple handfuls Chex Mix

D: grilled chicken skewers, side salad with tomato, cucumber and light vinaigrette dressing

Dessert: 4 apple slices, handful of trail mix

had some trouble getting the pics up. guess that’s what happens when you use your cell phone as a camera, then email the pics to yourself, then save them on the desktop all JUST to add them to the blog. I could avoid all this if I just used my regular digital camera, but NOOOOO!

Goodnight!

B: 1c. Fresh fruit salad, yogurt

Post workout: 1c. fresh fruit salad

L: 1c. Chicken stir-fry over 3oz. whole wheat noodles

S: 60g Honey toasted Peanuts

D: Margarita Salmon with Steamed Broccoli

Water: +96oz

(I took pictures of all my food, but I’ll have to post them later. I’m too tired and ready to go to bed)

B: 2 strips turkey bacon, 1/4c egg beaters with 1/4 cup RF shredded cheese, 1/2 large orange

Post workout snack: 1 banana

we all know what a banana looks like!

L: Tuna melt on whole wheat English muffin, 1/2 orange

these photos don’t do this meal any justice! It was soooooo delicious! I mixed the tuna packet with 1T RF Kraft Mayo with Olive oil, 1T dijon mustard, finely chopped onion and celery, black pepper, topped with tomato slices and RF shredded cheese!! YUMMMM! I ate this soooo slowly because it was just that good!

S: Handful of Cheddar Chex Mix, a few honey TOASTED peanuts- 60% less fat than regular roasted peanuts Yes, this was unplanned, and not the best choices, and yes I ate them in the car while running a million places this evening. I was eating out of frustration, but it was also controlled. I did not lose it like I could have with the peanuts. I kept it in great moderation. I’m okay with this little unplanned snack.

D: Chicken stir fry!!!

turned out great! marinated, boneless skinless chicken thighs, zucchini, red and yellow bell pepper, onion, broccoli, lots of spices, and seasonings…. YUM!

Water: 96oz+

So clearly, I need to get better about planning. It’s after 3pm and I have no idea what I’m doing for dinner. I do know that it will be carbless, and light, but that’s about it. I don’t have too many options though. I may do a stir fry with boneless, skinless chicken thighs, zucchini, bell peppers, broccoli, mushrooms- yep, that’s it! I’m taking the chicken out to thaw right…. NOW!

Ok, I’m back. I just took the thighs out to thaw/marinate. In a ziploc bag, I added garlic, hot chili sauce, sesame oil, soy sauce, and fish sauce to the frozen chicken. I will use pretty much the same seasonings to cook the stir fry later on. My goal is to have dinner cooked/served before 8 pm tonight!

**UPDATE**

My goal to have dinner finished by 8pm didn’t happen. It was closer to 9 again tonight. I just don’t know how I am supposed to get dinner finished before then. Maybe if I wasn’t making 2 dinners each night, it wouldn’t be a problem. But my children don’t get out of practice until 7:30. I just have to try harder is all. I’ll be okay.

B: 1/2c Egg Beaters Omelet (1c Raw Spinach, diced tomato, diced onion, 1oz RF mozzarella cheese), 2 slices turkey bacon

L: Turkey Wrap (2 slices turkey breast, 1c raw spinach, 4 thinly sliced tomato, 6 thin slices cucumber, 1tsp roasted red pepper hummus, 1tsp dijon mustard) 1/2 orange (sliced)

S: 2c raw spinach, 1 light string cheese, 2 slices turkey breast

D: spinach salad (2c raw spinach, diced tomato, sliced cucumber, 2 tbs Light Raspberry vinaigrette) 4oz baked chicken breast, 1/2 grilled zucchini (8 spears)

I used the same plate for both, so that’s why you see pink salad dressing under my zucchini, and I really wish I had gotten a clean plate, because I could taste it on my food.

Dessert: 1c fresh cut cantaloupe

no pic because I just ate it right out the fridge

Water: 64 oz

I don’t feel like I did too badly today. What I need to work on is the water, making sure I eat something immediately after my workout, and eating dinner at a decent hour. Today I didn’t finish cooking dinner until 9pm. I got home with the kids after 7 and still had to make their dinner (chicken strips and fries) and decide what I was gonna make myself. I had to make a decent meal because I was also cooking for my mother. This was definitely one of those nights where I’m glad I have accountability because I would have easily had a bowl of cereal or oatmeal for dinner because that’s just what I felt like making. Quick and easy. Instead, I had to actually cook real food because my mom wanted to eat with me since she says I eat so much better than she does. I had my normal cravings for bread, sweets, and peanuts/peanut butter today, but I didn’t give in.