oKay, maybe not so much.
I’ve been going back & forth on what to title this post, but I’ve narrowed it down to two possibilities: “I CAN’T do this!” or “I CAN do this!”
On the one hand, I feel like I have no time to keep up with this blog, but on the other hand, I feel like I really need to keep up with this blog. I mean, what am I doing here? Is one post a week really going to keep me honest & accountable & motivated? And how am I going to figure all of this stuff out if I’m not reading up on how all of you are figuring this out? UGH!
On the one hand, I’m only 1/3 of the way through these interviews, but on the other hand, I’m finally 1/3 of the way through the campus interviews. Only 4 more candidates coming to visit. Of course, if we don’t find someone who wants to work here, all the work I’ve done since September will matter none & next year someone will start our discussion of the faculty search with the statement: “what can we learn from the mistakes that were made last year?” UGH!
On the one hand, I lost 3.6 pounds last week, which is a weekly record for me. But on the other hand, I cut out chocolate & actually did more exercise than just opening (and never closing) a box of chocolates. So the weight loss is to be expected. I gained it fast over the holidays, so losing it fast only gets me closer to where I was before the holidays. But it’s still a loss, so maybe I CAN do this? Weird that I buried the lead here…this is a diet blog, so you’re supposed to lead with the weekly weight loss. Clearly I’m not all that excited about it, which is weird.
And on the one hand, I’m looking forward to getting back to running & lifting, but on the other hand, I won’t have bootcamp to persuade me to run & do crazy, crazy lifting. Bootcamp runs for only 1 month at a time, on Monday & Wednesdays, and all four of my next candidates will be here on a Monday or a Wednesday. So I’m on my own for the next month, which feels both good & terrifying all at the same time. I mean, wouldn’t it be cool to come back to boot camp a better runner & a thinner me?
I’m wound so tightly right now I could scream…yesterday after my meeting I rented some movies, came home & made a lovely curried lentil soup (the only really fattening thing in it is the can of coconut milk I used, although there are potatoes), shoveled the driveway, and decided not to work for the rest of the night. I spent 3 hours just watching the first disc of the Mad Men series…no computer on my lap, no work opened while I watched. It was fun!
& running was fun last week, even though I got in only one official C25K run, we still did a mile between lifting at bootcamp. I gotta get it together. My clothes have been fitting tight & I feel huge & out of shape. Time to review my rules…something about eating salads & not eating in front of the TV & using small plates? Maybe I should add in one about the amount of exercise I need to get each week? Yes…good idea.
So I don’t know if I’ve resolved my title crisis. Not sure which title fits this week. But I guess I’ll just keep my head down, plow through next week, and see if I can’t figure it out later.