I guess I run now

to lose this stupid weight. Yesterday I wore a skirt that I’m always worried is too tight. Instead, I spent the day with it rotating around my waist and fighting to get it back in place without too much of a public production. That I like; that I like a lot.

But I need to lose a lot more. I’m not one of those, “oh, I just need to lose 5 pounds so I can get back into a size 6″ people. I’m fat. I’m obese. It’s time to get back on track.

So here’s what I need to do:

* post here & read here every day.
* hit the gym at least 5 times a week.
* sign up for a month of bootcamp.
* get back to my rules & stick to them so I can get control of my eating.
* thank all of my friends here (you know who you are) for your amazing support.

I don’t especially care that this is like the 12th time I’ve had a new resolve in the last 7 months. I’ll take as many new resolves as I can, & string them out for a lifetime.

It’s time to get serious!

& it’s all promise and possibility. When I was in school, I was the kid in class who couldn’t shut her desk cause it was so crammed full of disorganized mess. But I’d start off every semester determined to do things differently: to take good notes about the assignments, to keep handouts stored carefully, to file things away, to be the perfect and perfectly organized student in the class. Never worked…eventually things would get messy, papers would get stacked up, a banana from my lunch bag would go missing somewhere in my desk & the fruit flies would signal the end to my latest bout with good intentions.

Things are a little different now: since the papers I’m keeping track of are my students’, not my own, I have to be more organized, but I still feel all that promise of a new semester this morning. This semester I can be the perfect teacher.

Food was good all weekend with the family. Hubby made a pound cake (eh gads) and then a trifle with parts of the cake, homemade custard & whipped cream (so not the way we make them in my family at all), but I can usually put the brakes on sweet food easier than the savory ones, so I had small samples of these only.

While my food was good & we got some nice long walks in there, my exercise this weekend was bad. So I’m reconsidering signing up for boot camp. It starts on the 22nd & they do fat analysis & measurements before and after so you can see “how much difference a month can make.” That’s starting to sound really good right now.

Today I teach, tour our new offices, and attend our first dept. meeting (with hubby!). Food:

Breakfast: kashi & blueberries

Lunch: Indian buffet with hubby

Dinner: mac & cheese from the box…not pretty

Snack: pretzels

Exercise: does walking in really uncomfortable shoes count? No? Okay then.