More on the title in a minute.
A little nervous about my run today. I’ve been on like a week-long vacation from running &, as many of you know, I seem to be stuck in run/walk mode, unable to run for more than 10-minutes in a row without a nice walk in there.
So I figure my goal for this week is to stop thinking in terms of time & just run for a full mile. Fine. So I hit the treadmill, walk for .15 and start running. As I’m running, I’m thinking, “okay, if I can’t make it, I can shoot for a run of just .85, which will put me at a mile total.”
So I get to that point, a full mile with only .85 of running. And I think, “come on, just push through to a mile.” And, of course, I’m thinking about being able to tell ya’ll–who are always pushing through, who are always, well, going the extra mile with your workouts–that I finally did it.
So I did it. And then I saw that I was only about 6 minutes from running for 20 minutes strait. & I felt good.
So I did it. And then I saw how close I was to running a full 1.5 miles, so I pushed on through.
And I did it. And then I saw how close I was to running for 25 minutes, so I pushed on through & I did it! A 25-minute run covering 1.77 miles! Yay me! Finished up with a 5-min walk, 5-min run, 4-min walk, and a run at 4.6-4.8 to finish out the 5k.
Honestly, it was easier & funner than its ever been. I don’t know if it was the week off or the fact that I started taking glucosomine for my knees last week (& ya’ll no pain at all for the whole run!), or what…but the force driving me was all of ya’ll, your motivating me and inspiring me and giving me a reason to push myself. Sincerely, thank you all so much!
Okay, now to the title. Around about minute 18, this Katharine McPhee song came around on the shuffle. It isn’t as inspiring in the instrumental form that I’ve linked to, but the lyrics really get to me, especially these:
And it is me who is my enemy
Me who beats me up
Me who makes the monsters
Me who strips my confidence
I am carrying my voice
I am carrying my heart
I am carrying my rhythm
I am carrying my prayers
But you can’t kill my spirit
It’s soaring and it’s strong
Like a mountain
I go on and on
I am walking on the bridge
I am over the water
And i’m scared as hell
Cause i know there’s something better
Yes I know there’s something better
Yes I know, yes I know, yes I know!