I guess I run now

or I’m trying to anyway.


Yes I know, yes I know, yes I know!

More on the title in a minute.

A little nervous about my run today. I’ve been on like a week-long vacation from running &, as many of you know, I seem to be stuck in run/walk mode, unable to run for more than 10-minutes in a row without a nice walk in there.

So I figure my goal for this week is to stop thinking in terms of time & just run for a full mile. Fine. So I hit the treadmill, walk for .15 and start running. As I’m running, I’m thinking, “okay, if I can’t make it, I can shoot for a run of just .85, which will put me at a mile total.”

So I get to that point, a full mile with only .85 of running. And I think, “come on, just push through to a mile.” And, of course, I’m thinking about being able to tell ya’ll–who are always pushing through, who are always, well, going the extra mile with your workouts–that I finally did it.

So I did it. And then I saw that I was only about 6 minutes from running for 20 minutes strait. & I felt good.

So I did it. And then I saw how close I was to running a full 1.5 miles, so I pushed on through.

And I did it. And then I saw how close I was to running for 25 minutes, so I pushed on through & I did it! A 25-minute run covering 1.77 miles! Yay me! Finished up with a 5-min walk, 5-min run, 4-min walk, and a run at 4.6-4.8 to finish out the 5k.

Honestly, it was easier & funner than its ever been. I don’t know if it was the week off or the fact that I started taking glucosomine for my knees last week (& ya’ll no pain at all for the whole run!), or what…but the force driving me was all of ya’ll, your motivating me and inspiring me and giving me a reason to push myself. Sincerely, thank you all so much!

Okay, now to the title. Around about minute 18, this Katharine McPhee song came around on the shuffle. It isn’t as inspiring in the instrumental form that I’ve linked to, but the lyrics really get to me, especially these:

And it is me who is my enemy
Me who beats me up
Me who makes the monsters
Me who strips my confidence

I am carrying my voice
I am carrying my heart
I am carrying my rhythm
I am carrying my prayers
But you can’t kill my spirit
It’s soaring and it’s strong
Like a mountain
I go on and on

I am walking on the bridge
I am over the water
And i’m scared as hell
Cause i know there’s something better
Yes I know there’s something better
Yes I know, yes I know, yes I know!

Filed under : General
By bigprof
On May 27, 2008
At 9:25 am
Comments : 4

4 Comments for this post

soclose Says:

Good for you! I play games with myself on the treadmill too only I’m just walking. No pain is always good.

I see you’re doing another 5K, WTG!!!

Finally printed out that French toast bake recipe; looks great.

eryn76 Says:

good for you! i started the C25k program on saturday and had to push myself to run each time… then I realized when I was done that I had done the 2nd week!! GAK!!! Anyway, I proved to myself that I could do it.

tiny2b Says:

I have been meaning to tell you… kudos on the coming back after a week vacation thing. For me, a week “vacation” from diet or exercise generally means I’m done for now and will revisit it at some point in the future, basically long enough into the future to have to start all over again. But not you! You take a week and come back with a vengeance. Truly awesome.

m3at49 Says:

Oh bigprof! Wowzers!!! Mr. Kitty and Stinky give you 4 paws up! I give you 2 green thumbs up, a pat on the back, and a “I knew ya could do it”! “Stinkin thinkin” is what holds us back. You got that and so ya pushed it, girl! Feels some damned good, doesn’t it!

Here’s some more lyrics for you from the Doors, “Break on through to the other side”!!!

Break on through, runningprof!


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