Last night I went I went home and the realization hit me! I’m really going to do this! I’m going to be healthy! Than it hit me… How? How can I do this? How can I be the person I want to be? How can I not give up! I wondered about that all night and I constantly thought to myself there is no way I’m going to be able to do this… I went to Applebees for Karaoke to have some fun. Thinking to myself I just need to get out of my brain for a little bit. Little did I know I would be getting some life changing words to help me be the person I want to be! Kevin (one of lincoln’s finest karaoke dj’s) told me something that I think will ALWAYS stay with me. I told Kevin that every morning when I wake up I hate myself… I hate the way I look, the way I feel. I never feel good enough. I want to be the person I’m going to be in 6 months now! Than Kevin tells me to start loving myself now. See myself as the person i’m going to see in 6 months and work at it! Every day! Keep that routine! At this point he doesn’t know it but I’m holding back tears! Words of encouragement is a BIG help! Kevin than proceeds to tell me the best way to work out, to avoid knee strain since I am a bigger girl! Tells me which machines are best and just encourages me. He tells me not to worry about how much weight I have lost but focus on inches! Gives me encouragement that I can do it. He even encourages my four year old to keep tabs on my work outs! Kevin is all full of tips that I’m just soaking up! Best piece of advice though was to buy a pair of jeans to small for me! Put them somewhere I have to look at EVERY SINGLE DAY! Than make the best damn effort to fit into those jeans! So tonight I’m going shopping for a pair of jeans! A pair that will be hanging on my fridge as a constant reminder to watch what I eat. Last night was a big help and step up for this journey I am embarking on! I would like to thank Kevin for those words! And thank him in advance because I know he is one person that will be encouraging and not lettting me give up in the future! And to everyone else who is encouraging me and standing by my side I appreciate it! More than you know! Thursday I will have my starting weight and goals and inches on here! That way the journey truly begins! Thanks for reading MUCH LOVE….